I used to be a really motivated person. Lots of goals and ambitions. I went through a rough patch that nearly extinguished my "flame of ambition." I was stressed, insecure and functionally depressed.

I met this group who took me in. They're very empathic and loving people. We created a very loving relationship. The love they showed me helped immensely in my healing which then led me to re-discovering my drive and firing up my flame of ambition.

Metaphorically, they kept me afloat when I was drowning. Problem is now that I'm not drowning, I'm remembering that I'm built to fly the skies and my friends aren't so do I stay because I owe them or be selfish and go where I belong?

I enjoy waking up at dawn, going for a morning run, weightlifing and rockclimbing. I like being in good health, looking good and feeling like a powerful machine. I want them to experience this aswell but everytime I bring it up, they turn it down.

I love the idea of running my own business. growing and operating a project that large and making BANK from it. Being able to look back and say I DID THAT. Whenever i talk about making money. They get annoyed, they don't care to get rich let alone stable, just keep struggling at minimum wage and the blasting their money and alcohol, weed and clubbing.

I run a small 3d printing business, and I build custom loft beds on the side. My main job is a irrigation tech. I drive a heavy duty work truck. I use tools and machines. I talk to wealthy customers with million dollar mansions and I make $450+ commission weekly. I feel competent and accomplished. Working this job and talking to these people made me realize what my potential was and it made me hungry for more.

I realized that there's levels to life. In order to climb, you have to be willing to struggle and be uncomfortable in the process of developing new adequate systems. I need to climbbb but my friends dont care to climb, It's also an investment that'll have returns for both of us.