AITAH for being afraid to have a child because I'm afraid my s/o will love the baby more than he loves me?

I'm not sure if it's abnormal and or I'm the only one. I have a long history of abandonment ever since I was young. And don't get me wrong, I want a baby personally and I know I would love the baby, I've always wanted to be a mother. I'm just afraid of my lover forgetting about me for our baby. Obviously it is an irrational fear and I'm more afraid of him not having time for me, this so what I grew up seeing in my household. AITAH??

P.S. if this gets much negative feedback, I will promise to see a therapist to try to solve this.