In a previous post I had talked about how I’ve been quiet and emotionally distant from my mom because she told me that me hanging out with my friend Carly, could trigger my sister’s eating disorder. For some reason, my mom is convinced that because Carly and my sister are close in age they MUST bc friends and always hang out which means that her and I can’t be close (we’ve bonded bc we both struggle with depression and have similar life experiences). This has led to my mom hating Carly because she’s been asking me to hang out (only twice), but not my sister. This doesn’t mean that Carly hates my sister or anything, they actually get along quite well. It’s just that for emotional support, I’m the one that she’s been turning to recently.

But while I’ve been keeping myself distant from my mom, my mental state reached a low and I ingested all my antidepressants. She clearly doesn’t truly care about me, only my sister which is why she’s throwing her eating disorder on me, and maybe everyone lives would be better without me. However, I throw up my meds, called my friend who helped me decide to tell my mom what I did and at the very least wait in my car to see if I feel weird and need to drive to the ER. My mom decides to go back and forth about how if I do go, they’re going to 51/50 me and how she doesn’t understand how come I wait until last minute to do something or harm myself. She also went on about how I’ve been blocking her off and having “attitude” so she can’t get through to help me. But when I’ve tried to talk to her about even little things, she’s always watching something and I have to talk over it or she seems like I’m bothering her. We “talked” for about an hour, meds in my system and she didn’t cry about it. But she did cry when talking her own life. She went on about how she had a rough childhood, made sacrifices for us, our dad leaving, sleeping in the living room. I’m not trying to brush those difficult things off like they’re nothing, but WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ME OVERDOSING RN??!!??! The whole time I felt like I was going crazy and kind of went numb

I’m a little tired and drugged up so I can’t really remember too much right now, but I wanna know if I’m AITA