Hi Reddit, For a little backstory I [18f] have been dating my bf [18m] for nearly 10 months now. To get it straight I’m very insecure and this is something we’ve talked about together a lot, he is very extroverted and goes out partying/clubbing nearly every weekend and while I do enjoy going out too I’m very much introverted and have a way smaller friend circle than he does. Recently he has been going out clubbing with this group of friends who are all girls except for his best friend, now I have no issue with this at all, I understand that girls and guys can be friends bc not everything is about sex and I agree with that!! But a small part of me constantly feels really insecure about it and a bit jealous tbh. They are all very pretty girls who are known at-least within my circle of friends to be pretty ‘crazy’ as in they hold crazy party’s and do crazy things or whatnot, sometimes my bfs guy friend or friends go with them but they all end up hooking up with the girls when they go out too( as in his friends hook up with them not him soz it’s a bit confusing to word) and they don’t hangout outside of going clubbing so I feel like it’s kind of a weird friend group dynamic. Bc of this I constantly am overthinking every time he goes out with them, and I’ve told him a couple of times how I feel about it, of course I would never tell him to not go or anything I was honestly fine with it I was just a bit insecure however I just went on as I’m generally a pretty insecure person either way. That is until recently, this is important to note also: my bf is going away for 6 months on a solo backpacking trip, he’s leaving in 2 months and is also working nearly everyday until he leaves so our time together has been getting more and more limited as we get closer to him leaving. Anyways, recently he got invited to go camping with the girls, I was invited to this but I really need to focus on uni so I chose not to go , Now I would never tell my bf to not go just because I can’t but I feel like I’m going insane, I have no reason not to trust him and I’ve met some of the girls once and they seem very sweet but I literally cannot stop myself from feeling so so jealous and upset and insecure, I am really trying not to lash it out on my bf because I know it’s not his issue at all but I feel insane. I messaged him about this and pretty much just told him how I felt, that I still thought he should go bc I know he wants to but was a bit upset especially because we have so little time left to hangout before he leaves, ( also another important note: a lot of our hangouts recently haven’t been legit hangouts they have been him coming to my house either drunk or high usually at like 12am as I live close to a-lot of the clubs he goes to, he comes over and we pretty much just go to sleep and in the morning I’ll make him food before he leaves usually 7-9am for work), bc of this and the fact we haven’t really been spending quality time together my jealousy and insecurity turned into annoyance towards him, we didn’t have a full out argument over text or anything but I felt so annoyed and upset and asked him if we could go on a 2 week break. He was pretty upset by this since we’ve never gone on a break and he’s very caring/ I guess a bit sensitive. I felt bad but I really think it’s what I need to work on myself. I know I’m really insecure and it’s been chipping away at our relationship for the last couple of months, I don’t know if I should just end it and stay out of relationships until I can figure myself out or if I should just suck it up and stop being a wuss now even though I don’t know if I even can do that. I really love him so much and I truely want to make the last couple of months together the best it can be but I don’t know if I can or how to change so fast. I don’t want to stay the same and make our last months together horrible and then be left in shambles when he leaves.

• I guess what I’m asking is AITA for asking for the break or just in this entire situation in general? Do u think I have a right to be annoyed at him?