Some background on my family, it's just me (15F), my dad (50M) and my mom (56F). I've had a rocky childhood and for as long as I can remember, my mom and dad have only ever fought and argued. My mom had a phase of really critical depression and she used to throw things around, break things and threaten people all the time. My dad, on the other hand, used to avoid all her outbursts and taught me to ignore them too. This all culminated in a suicide attempt from my mom. All of this really stressed my dad out, not to mention his stressful work life.

A month ago, it came to light that my dad had been in an affair for around 3 months and my mom found out about it through messaging history screenshots. She told my dad that she was going to leave and she didn't care about this family anymore. My dad cried and apologised and deleted every single contact of the other lady's in front of my mom. When I asked why he'd done that, he said he wanted to stop feeling suicidal and feel something in his life. My mom and dad reconciled and everything was very happy.

Then a few days ago, my mom read those screenshots again. Everything went downhill aftter that, as my mom started telling me that she was feeling suicidal and wanted to leave permanently and that she didn't think of me and my dad as her family anymore.

So I told her that she should stop bringing this whole thing up and focus on improving her mental health without dragging the rest of us through the mud. AITA? I really need help, I don't want to kill myself but I really can't handle this.