me and my little brother lived with my mom after parents split for 7 years. So for me ages 12-19 and my brother 8-17. She had a boyfriend immediately. Actually the reason my parents split was because she ran off with this new man, she abandoned my brother and I with my dad for 6 months or so and then randomly came back and moved us in with this random man. He was not a good person. Some things I can remember is him screaming at me and never making sense, he would always go on these rants that lasted what seemed like forever but they never made any sense. He called me a whore, a bitch, a slut when he was mad. If I wore anything revealing my stomach or legs he called me a whore and my mom would sit there and listen. He was ALWAYS screaming and he was pretty big and loud. He would get in my face. One time I put a pillow in between our faces because I couldn’t take it and he took it and threw it. He tied my dog to a leash to a door and left him there for months and beat him. When I stood up to him about that he got rid of him. He always was doing weird stuff and framing my little brother for it. He was always pinning me and my mom against my brother and acting like he was a horrible problem child. He said very weird and explicit things to me in front of my mom. Him and my mom accused me of trying to seduce him so that my mom would leave him when I was 15

I’m currently pregnant with my first child. Of course I want my mother to be involved but that also means accepting her boyfriend to be in my child’s life which i cannot do. It really breaks my heart into a million pieces. I was on the phone with her today and we got into a huge argument because I can’t understand her. My brother moved in with my dad where he is much happier. My mom only still wants custody for his SS check. They went to court and she calls me complaining about the things my dad said about her. We get into a huge argument because I’m like well they’re true… And I just get heated and crying and screaming asking how she could keep choosing a man over her child if she loves him so much. And she’s saying I’m a bitch and she can’t wait until my kid acts like this to me. and I told her the difference is I would never put my child through what you put us through. I feel terrible and I don’t know why. She ended up saying I can’t do this and hung up. I feel bad because I know she knows but I’m still angry.

She always acts like she’s so oblivious to everything. I kept saying over and over I wish you would just take accountability for once and she says I DO. Which is not true. Every time I confront her I’m “bringing up the past” or “giving her a panic attack” I’m just tired of her talking bad about my dad when she’s let horrible things happen to us…