I (18M) recently had an argument with my mom after i found out she has basically all the knowledge of my dad's death. all everyone else knows is it was just a car accident. she says she can't bear to show something like that to her kids and the people who loved him because she barely stomached it herself.

i get where shes coming from but as someone who also loves him, I think i and anyone who was close to him deserves to know. i told her she has no right to refuse that type of stuff especially when im literally ASKING. she got so upset with me that she cried and said she was only trying to help. it's not like she's making this easier in the first place because she casually mentioned that a disease was found in his report and thats what kicked off the whole issue. If you didnt want anyone to see something like that then why even bring that up and make everyone curious and worried.

It's been 2 days since the argument and she's still refusing to let me see his report btw.

Edit: I dont like the implication that im being noisy when this much more serious to me. im not badgering my mom either. she keeps sprinkling details and then backing out when i ask. Its not fair she keeps doing that espically when SHES the reason its always brought up. i apologize for my poor choice of words.

Edit again: mind you, his last words were in those reports and i cant even atleast kno that