Hello, I'm new to Reddit and my English isn't good, so please excuse any mistakes.

I (19nb) am going to a college equivalent in my country. Context: My childhood was pretty rough, and I still suffer from it. My parents (50s) divorced a long time ago, and it's safe to say that both of them, in their own way, contributed to my mental health issues. My father left us, and I barely had any contact with him, while my mother made me pay for his mistakes. Even when I was a little kid, she kept telling me I was a big AH as my father.

A few weeks ago, I was in class and had a panic attack, so I left. That was a tough moment for me because up until then, I hadn't let my problems show in my everyday life, and this was the first time I'd experienced something like that in public. I texted my mom to tell her, and in her reply, she called me lazy and a liar.

That was it for me. I was fed up with being treated like that. My father isn't a good parent either, but at least he didn't deny my problems, even though I didn't get any help from him.

So, in the aftermath of the stress, I wrote to my mother: "You did it. You're a bigger AH than my father."

Of course, she was angry, and some relatives said I always owed my parents respect, no matter what they did, and started talking about the Bible.

So, am I the AH for calling my own mother an AH, after she called me one my whole life and denied my mental health issues?