Just needed to rant and have some third party opinion. I am from Asia and English is not my first language so pardon me if I have any mistakes.

I 30F, and my mother 53F, who is still alive and well. There are some times that I would considered myself without a living mother as it doesnt make any differences even when she is alive and living not too far from me.

A bit of context, my mother does not work. She will only text me when she needs money. Let it be just a dollar or a hundred. Our text consisted only of 'Do you have $10?' or 'Got a $50?' and I would transfer to her. With my current lifestyle giving her that amount isn't a big problem but I always felt so used, like I am a atm. I know it's not a much if compared to others, like those on drama that the mother demanded hundred thousand dollars, but I live paycheck to paycheck so my funds are limited

She has a husband which is practically useless as he has not worked in his life, his money or I would say "pocket money" would come from his mother. And mind you, it's not much, just enough to get by + considering that my mother would still need to request money from me. But I guess they always take things for granted as by this age they still don't do basic financial budget or any sort. Also, what if the uncle's mother isn't around anymore, what are they going to do then?

Just to be clear, my mother is not abused or was force to ask money from me and my siblings. It's just blind love... When we were little, she was very much involved in our life, every school pickups, every parent meeting day, every graduation. But ever since she and my dad divorced when I was 18, it's like she broke up with us too. Which breaks my heart.

I'm not sure, sometimes whenever my friends ask me 'Hey, how's your mom doing?' I would always answers 'I'm not sure, but she will find me only when she needs money'
Sometimes I really felt like having a mother and not having a mother feels no different. I know I should be grateful that my mother is alive, when there are other people who doesn't have a mother. But again, my mother only comes to me when she needs money and never anything else like asking how my days were, how's my job going, any future plans etc. Just money.

AITA for considering myself motherless?