Honestly my son looks exactly like his father but with my heterochromia. His father was on tour with his second album. Absolutely in love with me. We lived across the country from each other. I went to college and just disappeared, he forgot I was going. Didn't have a cellphone and left my landline at home to be able to focus more on studies. We'd talk for hours almost every day about nothing, and he'd come visit every few months before college. I told him to focus on the band while I was looking for employment. My first few months of college were going smoothly it was difficult so I thought the stress was making me sick. When he'd visit we would just go to Broadway and chill, I looked 14 so he was not physically attracted to me so we did it once when really high. We met when I was 23, refused to believe I was not 14. I was doing stage management taking care of the back room behind the "dressing room" he came off stage and just yelled it's fucking hot up there, being the drummer he was done before everyone else, came out from the back room. Hey man you need some help cooling off? Hey sorry kid, didn't know you were here. We went in the back room talked a lot. Then after everything he was still curious, we talked more I took him for pizza.(A lot happened I'll make a separate post) I moved to the same county as him for a job, in the good area. Had a baby sitter when I was forced to reconnect with him at a party, my friend ambushed me by not telling me he was there already. I thought he was mad. Nope still wildly in love 14 years later. I couldn't bring myself to tell him yet I just said I have a big life changing surprise. Texted to see if he was going to band practice. Feeling a little sick so maybe. I brought my son. The guys were shook, he looked exactly like his dad did at 16 when they started. Who the fuck is this? This is my son Ashley. Why is this here?? I'm on break from college. Pussy ass bitch. Got a bitch name and spending time with mom instead of partying. Listen you mofos if he wants to spend his break with me, I don't ever stop him from doing anything. He's a good boy, tells me everything. This is his first house party. Damn, Brian you raised a🐈‍⬛. Since the drum kit was empty he asked if he could fill in for the practice. His dad is/was the drummer, left and came back to help uncredited for the last few albums. I knew my son was good. They looked at me I said he's good, but I don't make his decisions or yours. I'm not a part of this. They got 2 songs in and his dad comes back from the bathroom. Wow, you guys replaced me? All eyes on him I've never seen a grown man squeal he's 39 at this point in time. No, No, no. Looks at me tearing up no, no, no. It's like looking at my highschool yearbook. I missed 17 years with my son how could you do that to me?!?! I know I'm sorry I tried to tell you last week but I couldn't, I knew you'd give up on the dream. I couldn't do that to you. Sitting right there is my dream and making all my memories with you. You know we aren't going to work. I don't care you don't believe in marriage. I know it would bug you and you'd resent me for it. We would still spend our lives together so it wouldn't matter. I left over a decade ago anyway, tried to find you, but you moved without telling your family. They said you had a kid while in college, not that it was mine. They didn't know. But you did? Is it mine? Yes, obviously he's yours. How do you know? I hate sex, remember? So what would I do it? Well you did me. You were adorable and very emotional. Was adorable?? It's been a decade and a half, we both aged but yeah less cute more defined and handsome. You finally look 23. I was not able to contact you either sent fan mail with my number incase you had forgotten when I got settled. And heard you left the bad for "creative differences". Sorry guys we have to go I have 17 years to catch up on. Wait at least hear him play. Sat back down on the couch while, Ash started a solo play. He graduated at 12. Harvard reached out to us. Full ride scholarship. Then he got another for sports, and music 3 in total. 5.0 GPA. He's doing Astro physics like you wanted to but couldn't. His friends laughed and said damn bro didn't know you were smart. No, she's smart 2 doctorates before 40. Sweety by 26. No way!! she's more hood than the rest of us. I can be both. You, your loser bastard, hoe are nerdy🐈‍⬛s. And deserve each other. Kris nearly exploded at Vinny's the remark of his son. You ever so much as look at my son and think anything I'll cap you. I quickly got in-between them. Kris if you had any balls you would have made a decision you or us years ago. Look you two cool off, he could have had both I was already home waiting for him to visit or call for years. He didn't lock you down or anything and was just miserable missing and thinking about you. Look nothing would have changed between us. That's bull, he loves you so much. If I had told him I loved him he would have been a lot happier I suppose. Why didn't you? That's none of your business Kris growled. Bitch you wanna go?I know he'd never hurt me, but Vinny hated me. By this point 2 of the other band mates were behind the one friend saying how that was to far, not cool, dick move. and one was behind Kris. You should get a DNA test, remember she's a hoe? Everyone was like bro the fuck is wrong with you? Okay fine I see your boiling point that was a fair comment a little rude so imma let it slide(I turned around and gave him a quick cuddle)whispered "Dont get hurt it's okay to admit when you can't do something and think about your son"You two go at it he took that several steps to far. I stepped out of the way. Ash go outside now, please. Okay Mom, but dad needs some backup. Great you and the small bastard will get 6foot under by me. Hey fuck you dude, if I wasn't being a better person for my son. I'd take you right now.(I had fought him when we were both younger. Underestimated me I won easily. I stepped away and watched both of them get held back. Kris is rail thin and would have been crushed by Vinny's 250 pounds of muscle. The guys decided that the best way to break it up was separation and smoking. An hour later we just went back to everything like nothing happened. They've been best friends for years and I guess apologied to each other. Kris standing by the drums with his arm out waiting for our son to go over. He looked at me asif to ask for permission. I leaned down said your a decent man now. I think you should fearlessly make your own choices, your dad is also a great man. I want to see you play a bit more. Thank you so much dad! is everyone cool with it? he asked the room. Yeah little dude, you have our respect joining a fight you'd lose to protect family. Vinny huffed and said nothing, I was staring daggers at him. Everyone joked Ash was better like Kris at the start, just fresh. Kris was always the life of the party and funny af seeing him angry again and seeing red was painful. The6of us grew up in hoods. Mine was NYC, you5 are LA. Collective thanks for waiting but also not cool to keep it from him, he's capable of making his own choices. Look I wanted to let him party and have fun, not diapers and unfun sleepless nights. When I heard he left I tried to contact him. I figured he moved on and had his own family. For years we had to hear about you. No proof that was me. How many bitches does he know in medschool?? All of you told him not to fall in love with a hoe and hated me because you thought I was going to keep him. I sent him back to you but he left his heart with me. Yeah you basically killed him. Refused to party or hang out with girls. I was like nope during one of the calls I told him to have sex, and I assumed he was anyways. Baby no, I only did when I'd visit you. Well that's lonely and boring neither of which are you. Well I know you weren't so I felt a little guilty. Yeah that's my son he's really good. He had been playing the whole time. Damn mom, that's why you never talked about him. It was to protect you, I never wanted you to give up on anything. Having you and your mom was my main dream, and a family is just painful to miss out on, I missed you so much over the years. Baby Just in case he hated me, I couldn't do that to you. I wanted you to meet earlier, I just couldn't find him. Tears streamed down dads face. He was a happy child hardly ever cried or anything, even as he aged. We are super close he tells me everything, like everything. That's my boy getting laid. Okay dad, I don't know you well enough to have that conversation especially with other people around. It's okay son, completely natural and normal. Look, Ash is really shy I'm surprised he's talking at all. I whispered in his ear he got scared and left so no he didn't. Okay guys it's time to go and get caught up on the last 17 years. Hun he's 14 just looks like 17. Went to a coffee shop and I wanted to let them get acquainted but they both asked me to stay. He said I'm not mad at you son for being the way you are, I was pretty shy too and just used humor to get in with people, my friends made it easier to talk to the ladies for me. If that's not your thing that is also okay. It feels weird calling you dad as we just met and having a deep conversation not with mom. It's okay call me key, until you are comfortable. I saw you crying earlier are you okay? I spent years missing to you grow up. Dad is great for me to call you. Eyy keywi I know you are excited but he's not ready to open up to you yet. I know I just love him so much. We just met dad, how can you know that? I love her more than anything in the world and you are both of us. Yeah but by your lifestyle I'm a complete disappointment. Shh no you are not. The guys exaggerated most of the lyrics. And I as they said didn't want to party. Yeah but you did before mom. I was making bad choices, to fit in. You are strong enough to not do that, I'm a little jealous of that. Hey keywi can we talk a moment outside? Sure. Look it's okay to be mad at me for not telling you sooner or finding you. I didn't know Cman was still living here either. No honey, I'm just relieved and happy to see you again. Yes, it would have been good to know. You wanted to let me enjoy my partying years I just felt empty without you. I kept reaching out. No one would tell me anything. I'd fly out and stay at your place remembering the good times and looking for anything that might tell me where you were. I'm sorry I didn't know. I didn't call you. My aunt said when I settle in my new place she'd call you. I had a great job, guess she decided that I didn't need to give up either. Everyone "lost" your number and when I came back it was no longer on the fridge. Or phone contacts. No voicemails or anything. I heavily debated on letting you know immediately so nobody gave me your number LA is a big place. I couldn't bring Ash with me to search it. You diserved your freedom anyways. That must have been so hard being a single mother. Not really he's a great kid. He always understood why I needed to do everything I did, even as a toddler. Or perhaps just liked the nanny, we always spent the weekend, doing whatever he wanted together. He saw I'd come home exhausted and ready to collapse but would still make dinner for him. He started to do it for us. I got a job offer in LA so here I am. So proud he is smart and in the best college. Me too how did that happen? A lot of hard work. Maybe start a little easier with him. We come back he's looking terrified. Did Mom tell you how boring I am compared to you? No, even if she tried, we are completely different people. I don't think you're boring, I'd like to hear about your life from you. She just told me to chill a little and how proud she is. They talk, I take a business call. Hey guys did you want to go to the party I did promise you your first house party. I want to talk to Dad more. He can teach you to be social and party. If you want you two can spend the night at my place or move in so we can be a family. Ohh mom can we? I never stopped you from making your own decisions. I have to stay at my place for my job. Okay party than Dad's? Fuck yeah. Ash we both love you and I'm off on vacation too. So we can stay as long as you want. It was nice watching him open up and not so uptight and responsible. I brought them both some jungle juice. Smelled it and said smells flammable. Dad shot it immediately after I gave it to him. It's okay to not drink. You don't. I'm mom not you I can't drink. I do have an occasional scorch. Try it before deciding if you like it.(Spit it out Immediately)See you at least tried it. I get more than enough kissing your dad. You seemed sad and alone until lately. Baby I had you I've never been alone. I love you Mom, you have not done PDA yet. Oh baby we didn't want to do anything infront of you until you are comfortable around this stranger. It's okay, I know you are having sex tonight. Maybe not baby we are focusing on you. Might just stay up until we all pass out. Fine I'm happy with you guys go for it. You never held me back I refuse to do it to you. Sweety have fun, let me find where Kris slipped off to. Let me know when you want to go. I'm going in the back to smoke after finding him. If you want to try it, I won't stop you either. The party was banging, it was hard to talk. Dad is wasted and just having fun. The rest of the band was like he hasn't been this happy since before meeting you. Look at him being the life(of the party)again dancing, cracking jokes and getting freaky. We're all to old to be raging so smoke until buzzed and get grinded on for a bit is their party life now. My manz was really have fun like I hoped he was when I made him leave. You'd better make sure he's going home with you when he's like this he used to be unpredictable. He was dancing in the street at this point. If he wants some strange, I'd say he deserves it. Just so you know he had a few girlfriends over the years, none worked out because they couldn't live up to you. That's tragic I always hoped he was happy doing whatever he did. Ash came out shortly after me because it was too loud. If you don't want to smoke this 🪴, that's totally fine Whenever you are ready. Mom this has been great, dad is having a lot of fun. I want to go, but don't want him to hate me for making him, leave. Oh he won't hate you. Stay out here I'll talk to him. He was aggressively affectionate, I swear it felt like when he was first able to be physically attracted to me. We slipped off into an empty room. Showed how much he missed me. Baabe Ash wants to leave, are you done? Party isn't my scene anymore, to old and I have a family to think of now. Well you just tried to grow it. Sorry it's just been forever since we touched. We literally did this 3 days ago, you're drunk, I'm driving. We took his car back to his huge house. I went to my place and grabbed some clothes for us. We stayed a few weeks. Roadtriped across the country to get Ash back to school. I went back to my place and started working again. We'd meet up for dates and started to get more comfortable as a family. Ash opened up to him, not as much as he was to me. I'd like to say happily ever after. He asked me if I remembered when he "asked me to marry him". I was like yeah you wanted to practice for your girlfriend. You were my only one, for years. Yeah your friends told me about the others, I was going to tell you but didn't want to fight or bring down the mood infront of Ashley. Babe it's fine I'm happy for you to move on and be happy or just get some. You will never understand how crushed I was when you said no. But then turned around and said do it again. I know I did just wanted you to be prepared in case she said no. You had said yes the second time and if she said no she'd be crazy. Anyone would be lucky to have me. How you wished it might have been us in another life. I was a little suspicious when the second time you picked me up and kissed me spinning me around before putting me down. Yeah, you snacked me and said don't do that to your girlfriend. It's not cheating tho. If you found out I was kissing some other dude a few years ago you'd be pissed give her that respect. When you said that you wished it was you I wanted to tell you that you were my only girlfriend at the time. Dude we weren't dating, just friends hanging out and having fun. Literally the trip before was the first time you let me hit it. I went home bought a ring and planned out how to begin telling you I loved you romantically, not like my little sister type of relationship. I knew when I started you'd pull back and I wasn't ready to lose you. I just wanted to know what it felt like when you said yes. I'm going to lie to you I'm sorry I scared you. See I told you we won't work you are starting to resent me for not wanting to marry you. No it's the same thing we are still spending our lives together. If you won't take my last name, since Ashley is my son can he have it? That's not my decision. You'll have to talk to him and I'll consider changing my surname. I don't like getting legal shit in my life at all. I promise I'll be the best "husband" ever. Babe, you can be better than you already are? I never felt the need to do anything more for you that how I was feeling, they say marry your best friend. Babe I know my disability hurts you. You didn't decide to be a sociopath. We've gotten past the fact you can't feel emotions years ago. I'd like to believe when you lie to me about caring, it's true. I want it to be as well. I should get back to the office, see you later? Oh coming over tonight makes creepy purr or growl you know what I'm talking about. Sociopaths can't feel emotions, psychology know it's wrong but still do horrible things with no remorse for the high of doing it. If you want the full story. I'll make a few more posts. Yeah my name is Brian FAB. Kris, Cman, and Vinny are made up names. female at birth? You kids are hard to keep up with.