I(17F) can be harsh sometimes and regret it instantly but this time I didn’t because I allowed too much, but I guess that’s growing up.

I’m the oldest of 4 siblings, I was the one doing everything around the house, cooking, cleaning, picking my siblings up from school. I was the parent, I did grow resentment because I never had time for myself. One time cps was called but I was a kid and lied because I didn't want anything to happen to me or my siblings, about 2 years ago cps came again but my mom and grandmother lied. My siblings are in my grandma care so if anything happens she will take care of them.

My 3rd brother has autism and anyone who has dealt with kids who are autistic know it’s hard to take care of them, my mom didn’t get him into a special education to help him and her with resources sp he was very out of the place. Little old me had to take on that responsibility, I just think about not having siblings because maybe my life would be better than this.

My mom met her boyfriend a year ago, 2 months into their relationship she let him move in and I knew it was a dumb idea but she didn't care. This man controlled the house and she let him, he tried to act like my father but I wasn't going for it, no one can replace my father. About 7 months in, my mom told me she was pregnant and I wasn't happy about it.

I didn't understandwhy my mom still wanted kids at 42 if she knew she was not going to raise them, it pissed me off becauseshe was only thinking about herself. Now that all that passed, she had the a baby girl and I haven't been feeding into my mom. Every minute she wants me to feed the baby, bathe the baby, wash the baby clothes. Jordan started acting weird, its been days since we saw him.

My mom been crying ever since, she's been wearing the same clothes and everything. I go to my boyfriend house so much just to get away from it, sometimes I don't even see my siblings for a week or two. They get sad because I always make them a special lunch but I'm never there to make it, my mom usual give them money for their lunch. Since I'm not there, my siblings and ngs stay with our grandma so my mom is home allow with the baby unless my grandma takes her and watch her. I already contacted cps but I already know my grandma got all the kids because she knows this is normal. They still have to investigate any abuse, hopefully they actually do their job.

Everything she wants me to do like I don't have my own life, can't even focus on work because she's there nagging me. It just got the the breaking point, one day was it for me. She kept yelling my name to come take the baby because she has was crying non-stop and I couldn't do it so I told her to raise her own kids because I'm not doing it. The way she looked at me with hurt and then started crying, she ended up telling my grandma which is why I'm TA to her. Aita?