Ok this is kinda long and slightly political, but bear with me here.

So for background, I'm a college student. No job, no money, the only thing that I have a lot of is student loan debt lol. Pretty much dependent on my parents to survive.

So for anyone who doesn't tommorow April 6th, is going to be a big protest against the current administration for...well everything they've been doing the past three months (god it feels so much longer than 3 months).

Now my mom raised to be pretty free minded and make decisions of my own. She doesn't want to pressure me on anything, hell when I first told her about wanting to go she was hesitant but supportive. (Mom's are the best)

But then my dad found out, and let's just say he wasn't super thrilled about me going. How it wasn't my fight, and that I had no business going. Also doesn't help that he's a supporter of our cheeto in chief, either. Thankfully it didn't turn into a fight but only because I had an errand to do and left the house.

Unfortunately my mom and dad had it out, so to speak. Don't really know since I wasn't here to witness it. Before you ask no it wasn't violent, the most violent my parents get is that they both yell and storm off in their respective places in the house.

When I get back she told me she supported me in anything I want to do. But reminded me that I have responsibilities to my family, and that that's what I should be focusing on instead of goign to a protest fighting for other when I haven't done jack shit for myself or my family.

And you know what? She was right. So for some extra background. My dad is a blue collar worker, my mom was a restaurant manager. Things were good until covid. She lost her job, and we've been dependent on my dad's job ever since.

Which is hard to watch since its back breaking manual labor, and it hurts to watch my dad's body slowly break down over time while I'm doing fuck all to help. I barely help with chores, and I haven't been focusing in the job hunt all that much either. Also I might have undiagnosed depression which probably doesn't help, but that neither here nor there, I mean who here doesn't have undiagnosed depression am i right. The only excuse I have is school, but that's a pretty lame excuse.

I realized I was being hypocrite, which is something I vowed I would never be. Or at the very least its a very unfair thijg to do to my parents. So I decided to skip out on the protest, even though I really, really, really want to go.

Honestly I wanted to vent, and get some perspective, I know NTA, and that some of you might even say my parents ATA. I get it.

It just sucks a bit, it's going to be one of the biggest protests so far and I'm gonna miss it, not to mention i already told my buddies and a couple of professors I would go. The only good news is that they're probably going to be even bigger protests in the future, and with a job and expendable income I could even go to DC where all the action is and join a protest there. Hell if it's big now I can't imagine how big it'll be on say 4th of July.

I'll probably just call my reps and complain about how shifty of job they're doing and boycott however I can. Which should be easy since in flat broke lol.