Basically they went to Bahrain on my birthday when I wanted to stay home on my phone and at the end after a lot of bugging me about why I was sad I said ididn't wanna come here in the first place it turns out he cried because I was very harsh when in fact I'm terrified of him because he yelled at me for everything the entire Ramadan when im already scared of yelling and my mom now confronted me today saying all this and telling me I shouldn't have let the fact you didn't wanna go ruin the day and that event that lasts 5 days (4 days and 2 hours because it started really late) it can wait till next year it wasn't worth it to not smile, everyone cares about me but I care about my phone. Am I really in the wrong for wanting to stay home and not go out?, I did have fun for a bit but i still wanted to go home we came back at 1am when we left at 10am arrived at 11am

Edit:to clarify I didn't speak up for the entire trip until the very end when I told my stepdad I didn't want to be here in the first place and that I wanted to be at home and yes I did have fun a bit but I want to go home and I didn't talk because why would you go against someone who might yell at you for not wanting to go? When you get scared and upset when yelling happens even when you aren't involved