I (20f) and guy (23m) have been good friends for a while now. I personally have always Known I have loved him after seeing him for the first time 3 years ago. We have since grown our friendship and my feelings for him have continued to grow. He has continuously been there for me I wont give too many examples however hugging me and saying he will always be there for me made me feel really closely connected to him and he will constantly move in a public scenario even with his other friends around to sit beside me. I thought these may have been hints or signs as well as the subtle flirting giving me a sense it could potentially lead to something. Clearly I was wrong as he mentioned a month or so ago that he had now gotten back together with his ex. While I have tried distancing myself from him as I don't want to play any part in what could be a very messy situation (despite nothing happening between us) I keep gravitating towards him, which is making my feelings harder to go away. There is a constant tension between us and he still continues to do things like flirt and stand close to me ( giving that weird are we gonna kiss feeling ) everytime this happens I pull away but it is getting hard to now as i can tell that i still love him. Even though I have stayed away I cant help but feel guilty that I have these feelings and that something could happen between us. ( also this is my first post so sorry if there is too much or too little detail ). It has now gotten to the point where i am comfortable of the idea of letting him go because if he is happy then i will be happy for him as I tuly believe he deserves all the happiness in the world yet I still cant help but have that feeling of what if letting him go is wasted chance to have love that is real. I tend to push that feeling away but I still feel guilty and feel like I am in the wrong for having feelings for a guy who is taken.