So i have always had an inferiority complex and im actively improving myself trying to not compare/be jealous of others and ive gone a long way to trying to be a good person i believe but today i was on videocall with my friend and she was talking to me about her very racist dermatologist. That derma was a piece of shit and said horrendous things to her and her dad was with her and i said YOUR DAD DID NOTHING?? cause my dad would start fighting with that doctor and i told her of an incident when my dad went off on a doctor on my behalf . Also i just started using makeup and shes been doing makeup so i asked her how she puts eyeliner on her eyelids cause my eyelashes get in the way and she said thats cause you have naturally pretty long eyelashes compared to mine same with blush i told her i love blush but if i put it on it looks like i have a fever and she said its cause my face has a natural pretty blush AND MY HAIR, hers is curly so i showed her my straight hair and she said it takes her so long to straighten and get her hair like mine GUYS IM NOT BEING A PICK ME IM REALLY NOT PRETTY I JUST FEEL LIKE I KEPT SHOWING OFF IN A WAY AND I FEEL SO SO FKING BAD and she was getting ready during the call and she looked so fking gorgeous out of this world and i gave a really big reaction i complimented tf out of her which was really valid too cause shes so hot BUT WS I BEING AN ASSHOLE IN THIS CALL IVE BEEN WORKING SM ON MYSELF TO NOT BE A PIECE OF SHIT idk if im being too critical and she didnt even think about these things cause we were talking about a lot of thing not just these but was this mean please help me im trying to be a better person

guys please help