Hello reddit! I have a update for my situation involving my boyfriend. At lot had happened these past couple days so I figured I would give an update:

Well starting off I am safe and well I know a lot of you were concerned with my well-being and I really do appreciate that :) I am no longer in a relationship with my ex I decided that I wanted my future and to live my life as I please and to focus on schooling and get my degree in radiology so far I been going well I past a very important test for it so that's good! Also I don't stay with him anymore either (obviously) im currently in my dorm eating ramen and chicken rewatching The Last Of Us with a cat I found outside in an ally :) (still don't know what imma name him but I'm definitely keeping him!!)

Anyways I ended up meeting with my ex's mom before we broke up I decided it would be best to tell her why I am no longer seeing her son, I was nervous but when I saw her I broke down and just word vomited everything my ex has done and I won't lie seeing her eyes tear up and hearing her voice cracked as she repeatedly apologized broke me. She is the sweetest person in the whole world and she been through a lot it was heartbreaking but she ended up calling his brothers (the twins) and their dad over and she comforted me as I told them everything that went down, seeing the anger on the twins and dads face did scare me but I'm the end his father asked for my forgiveness on what he did and told me me I wouldn't need to worry about anything that he will handle it once I broke up with him. I did break up with him after that conversation the twins were with me when I went to get my things from my ex's place and the break up was hard my ex was crying and begging on his knees for forgiveness and saying he didn't mean to hurt me and that he loves me and he will get help with his issues ect ect. The last I heard is that last night their dad took my ex back with him to his place so he can get proper help and other things like that.

But reading the comments you guys left me had me reflecting and still am reflecting on the past 2 years of the relationship/before we even started dating and I guess being so young and thinking I'm in love made me blind to the red flags that were so obvious but I kept looking past them because I truly believed he was the one for me. It does hurt because I really did give him everything yk creating a bond with someone like that "helping them" putting your time and energy into someone can drain you and it was draining me slowly. But I can't lie and say I don't feeling anything for him anymore I still do I still have love for him and I still hope he can break out his habits and gets better for himself, I hope he realizes his damage he has created but only time will tell right only he can help himself.

But all in all thank you for helping me realize the type of relationship I was in, I will not dwell on the break up and focus of many things that are coming up for me ( My birthday!!!!) and just let life take it's course and let everything play out. As a wise person as told me when the time is ready it will come to me so I'll definitely be single for a bit and just focuse on school again thank you for everything you guys have done for me I truly appreciate every single one of you:)