Hi everyone, i trully don't know Who to turn to so i'm just gonna pour my heart in here since at this point, i don't know what to do anymore. I, (17F) had never really had a healthy friendship before, there was Always some big ''but'' And i was also a victim of bullying. Now i study at a certain Highschool where i met two girls, we'll call them Lola And Evelyn, who i befriended. Lola And i became best friends Who did a lot of stuff together before i slowly realized She was leeching off of mě, see, i'm not a straight A student but i have fairly nice grades while she's currently failing some subjects Once again. Over diferent stuff we had some arguments but we sorted everything out, yet it's just not the same anymore. Evelyn And i are also in that class And She goes home with the same bus (public transport) And i would've Said we hit it off - similiar humor, interests And So on. She befriended more people And Is overall popular while i'm the person everyone likes enough to co-exist with but not enough to hang out with. Evelyn hit it off with that group too And i sometimes tagged along, Always getting the hint when i wasn't welcome tho which i don't blame them for. Today our school had a big voleyball match which i tried to organize for, see - Evelyn takes two buses So She needs them to Follow up And i Always try to change my way So i can go with her, even tho She often rather sits alone. Yesterday i Tried planning the way So i could go with her but She didn't want to So i just let it go And Went by myself, She later texted mě she'll come for the second period So i saved her a spot. When She came, She sat with her other friends And later on i joined her for about 2 or 3 minutes before going Away as i Felt that i was interupting. I also asked her if she's going by the bus which She wasn't. Now comes the problem: i found her on a video on ig So i sent it to her, adding a text saying stuff like ''look ať that supermodel'' which i meant as a joke, i didn't mean it that she's ugly (quite the oposite) And i thought nothing of it as we often had these jokes. Now, about 4 Hours later She sent mě a long text with all the things She doesn't like about mě, about how i'm too clingy And overbearing And So on which i never intended to do. I was just trying to be a good friend And i didn't do anything i wouldn't like to experience myself. Since She never mentioned it, i thought we were good but i Guess i was Wrong And i don't know what to do. I can't Tell my parents - they already have too much trouble with our financial situation And health complications So i'm on my own. I should probably mention that i suffer from ptsd, depression and panics attacks (i'm medicated) And Now all the flashbacks are coming. I don't want to make myself the victim, it seems i was in the Wrong afterall, i just need advice. I don't know what to do And frankly i considered her my best friend which She Now clearly started i Will never be. What do i do And AITA? Sorry for the long post, i needed to get this off my chest, it's currently almost 11pm in my timezone And She just sent it out of nowhere. Thank you for listening to mě blabling And hopefully helping mě.