Just want to know if I’m the problem. Because I often feel annoyed with others or negatively. It’s like damn if I have problems with this many people maybe I’m the problem?

Anyways. Long story short. My sister said I’d be her maid of honour. Then a month later she decided she wanted her best friend to be it. I was heartbroken, but did my best to keep my cool and be understanding. Even though it was a painful experience. I just felt like I did something wrong or like I wasn’t good enough. Her logic was just that she wanted to include her friend in some way. (She’s having no bridesmaids)

Fast forward a month later, my mom my sister and I are just talking about things she’d like for a bridal shower and then a week later she says she’s too overwhelmed to plan this (which is fair) and asks my mom and I to take over. For context, she makes really good money, I make okay money but I’m single and support myself fully. My mom is poor. So now it’s up to us to plan and pay for things.

Her maid of honour hasn’t offered to pitch in financially, which is fine honestly, but she said she was going to get cupcakes to bring. I said oh awesome, we won’t bother with a cake then. Then today my mom said she’s wondering how many cupcakes the maid of honour is bringing. So I asked her. She said 24. Party is going to be 60 people.

This pisses me off, she could’ve offered to pitch in for the cake or anything else. What’s the point in bringing 24?!? Am I losing my mind?

Anyways, I won’t give her grief about it or anything I’m just wondering AIO because I’m seriously so confused and irritated. I get turned down from being maid of honour and then now have to plan and help pay for her shower of 60 women, and it’s like I have to just bottle everything inside and make her happy even though I just want to scream. Yeah yeah I know it’s “her special day” but these things become “it’s her special year” real quick. Maybe I just don’t get it because I myself am not into all this and I’d never ever put any type of burden on my family. I prefer to spend time with people in smaller settings/with people who actually are close to me.