Hi reddit (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠) this is my first time posting.

Anyways, Me(18f) and this guy(18m) been friends for 3 years, we met first time at school (more specifically in a group chat) cuz we were in the same class, he was the first male that I accept his follow request on Instagram, cuz I wasn't really the type that has lots of male friends until recently.

Tbh i like talking to him and I enjoy our conversations and I feel like he likes me since he always compliments me and talks nice to me even tho this is something very out of character for him(i also found out that he made a fake account to talk to me and said he has a crush on me, and when he knew i found out he kept denying it even tho everything is clear).

Even tho i like him, and he's my first love; I don't really wanna be in a relationship with him for many reasons one of them is that I'm Muslim (so is him) and even if i wasn't, I'm not interested in dating at all. So i kept it as a situationship . One day we were chatting and he suddenly disappeared after I was very excited and sent a bunch of messages 😭💔 and after some hours he reacted to all my messages with laughing and Heart emojis but didn't send any message and when i checked his account it showed that he removed his account (he didn't block me I checked from someone else's acc and he actually removed it)

Days later when i was checking my dms I saw that his acc is back (i honestly check everyday 💀). So i quickly blocked him cus what he did made me feel horrible and that I'm down horrendous, cuz he honestly could have texted me from any other platform and informed me that his account was removed, i even saw that he posted a tiktok the time i was literally ghosted.

After some days he sent me a message on tiktok ( we weren't following each others there so he probably searched my name) and didn't apologize or something he just said " I texted her out of nowhere 😔" from what I Know him he means that he doesn't usually do that or something. Even tho i was HAPPY he texted me again, I didn't text him back and blocked him from tiktok too.

But i miss him and want him back. AITAH