Okay so for context, I(18F) have been with my bf (21M) for two years now. We met online and we're good friends but that quickly escalated and we started dating. At first I wasn't looking for love in any way, not even the casual stuff. I was just talking but things got serious and we got in a relationship. After that I started college and coincidentally, he was in the same college. That stunned me but we both laughed it off(he was now my senior too). Everything seemed perfect at first but soon he started showing his true colours. I was absolutely stunned when I found out he cheated for the first time. I am a very loyal person and I believe that noone deserves to be hurt by someone they love and go through all the emotional pain and suffering. Long story short, he went on to cheat on me 25 times(that I know of) in the last 2 years. I'm not talking about micro cheating here, I'm talking about sex with others, dates with others, sleepovers with others, kissing with others, type of cheating. I always forgave him but I snapped when I found out that he and his ex(21F) with hooking up. He LEFT me for her for about two weeks before he came back to me and apologized, cried, all that shyt show and my stupid ash took him back. He AGAIN hooked up with her and I don't know how many times that went on before I found out again. He even got her pregnant and she had to get an abortion that I paid for. Turned out that his ex had a boyfriend of 6 months(22M) and they were about to get married soon in about 3-4 months. I'm too stunned to speak. Here's the thing though, amidst all this, I met john(23M) online. Super nice guy and when I told him about all this, he helped me emotionally and mentally so much. He even flew to come see me and spend time and we had a blast. We were trying new food and drinks all day in different places, went to parks and all. We've met twice till now and I'm not proud to say that we kissed the second time. I know it wasn't a good thing but it just happened. John has even helped me financially as I had to get a loan to get my boyfriend's ex's baby aborted. John's parents love me but they think that I'm his girlfriend and I would love to be but it's so complicated here. On a side note, me and my boyfriend (probably soon to be ex) haven't spoken for 3 weeks now and it's been a week since I kissed john. AITAH?