📝 AITAH for Dreaming about my Dead BF

By viridianpeach • Score: 3 • April 11, 2025 1:20 PM


So for context, my previous boyfriend passed away suddenly in a car accident. We had a great relationship and he died young. I took my time to cope and move past it. I did move past it and finally started dating again and am now in a 6-year-long relationship with a man I love dearly. So a couple of days ago, I had a carzy dream about my previous partner (the one who passed away), and it jarred me to the point that I woke up crying. Because of this, I distanced myself from my boyfriend. The best way I can describe it is that the dream brought up some abandonment issues, and I was trying to just work through it. However, I felt I needed to get it off my chest, so I told my boyfriend about it to the last detail through a text message. I told him this: "He had a thing about skin contact. When he would come and stay over at my place we'd be in bed and I'd always have my shirt on and he'd start this joke about how there's not enough contact and he's yank my shirt off so that we could be skin to skin and then he's hold me as close as he could from behind. I was dreaming about one of those moments, but it was all distorted. I honestly can't remember what he looked or sounded like anymore. So if he's in a drea,m it's more like fragments of a person that's not quite right or isn't fully made out but I can tell you know. But we were going through that whole routine and I can feel him pressed up behind me and I remember feeling safe like a baby all wrapped up. And then my shirt he just took off is wrapping around my neck and he's strangling me and I can't breathe. Next, thing I know I'm laying in the middle of the floor by my small dinning area and my neck and head hurts so much and I feel like I'm melting into the floor and I can't move. I just feel so alone, completely naked and alone. I haven't felt that alone since he died. Then I woke up, I cried and stared at the ceiling and just grabbed a piece of your shirt because I wanted to make sure you were there. That's the most vivid one, I don't know what to make of it. It's got me feeling off." So yea that was my fucked up dream. I just needed to get it off my chest, and I see my boyfriend as someone I can talk to about these things. So he comes home at the end of the day and doesn't say anything to me, doesn't even make eye contact, and never replied to my message. So I figured, I guess he's tired and didn't have a good day, and I try and give him space. Well, this morning I got up and packed his lunch for work and everything like I normally do, and he tells me that he's really upset and I over-shared, and I would feel horrible if he shared something intimate like that about an ex-girlfriend. He started saying how now he feels like when we're intimate, I'm thinking of my dead boyfriend. I said that's crazy, and I've never compared them. He said he felt like me being distant because I was not as interested in him intimately and I'm still hung up on my past relationship. I tried to explain to him that I was just sharing a dream I had that I did not interpret as an intimate thing at all. If anything, the dream felt like I was reliving a horrible past life, and I thought these things were something I could share with him because he made me feel safe. It just turned into a big fight,t and now he says he's not sure how to move forward. Did I overshare? Am I the asshole for sharing my dream with him? How do I move forward from here? Any advice would be great.

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