For context, I've known this guy for a long time, and he recently started talking to me again and said that he had feelings for me. My feelings for him admittedly never left. He tells me "I'm not ready for a relationship, but I could try with you one day." And initially I was completely okay with that.

A few months of us spending more time together go by, and I notice a pattern. He keeps slipping up and calling me his gf when we're alone and calling me babe, but will go to other people and say we're just friends.

So one day I ask him "What are we?" Because at this point I'm confused. He's slipped up so many times that I'm struggling with his mixed signals, and he gets defensive with me and says "you already know where we stand" and doesn't give me a straight answer. I drop the subject.

Another month goes by, he's STILL slipping up but I'm scared of bringing it up to him because I feel like he'll get upset with me. I come to find out recently, after noticing he's been flaking on our plans to game and stuff, that he's matching pfps with someone else.

I won't lie, I feel kind of guilty for being upset about it because all I want is some closure and for him to be honest with me, even if it means he's not interested anymore. These mixed signals are taking a massive toll on my mental health, and any advice would be helpful.

(Also he doesn't know I'm upset with him, I've kinda internalized it all and kept it to myself)