Okay, ik the title sounds crazy, childhood friend and nudes in the same sentence is wild. But hear me out. So, I’ve known this guy since I was literally a baby. Our parents were colleagues and now they’re basically best friends. We weren’t exactly "childhood friends" tho more like we just knew about each other's existence growing up. We’d see each other at family events sometimes, but that was it. We even went to the same school for a while, but he was a year younger, so we barely crossed paths there either.

Basically, I could trust him or at least I thought I could cuz I knew him and his whole family. We actually first started talking properly when he transferred to the same high school as me. Before that, it was just polite nods whenever we saw each other. Nothing more. (Also side note: bro is very good-looking, like, conventionally attractive. So the minute he joined our high school, he instantly got popular, but that's a whole other story.)

Anyway, after we started talking, we began lowkey flirting in private. And after about 2 months, we got together. Wild, ik. Even tho we "knew" each other from before, we were practically strangers, only hearing about each other through our parents talking about academics and stuff.

Once we got into a relationship, after around 2 or 3 months, we started sharing pictures. And honestly, in our society, it’s crazy risky, like, guys leaking pics of their girlfriends isn’t even shocking anymore, which is so messed up. But idk why, I trusted him. I genuinely felt like he wouldn’t do that, and till today, he hasn’t.

But something shifted after that. He started bringing up his ex way too much, like, randomly dropping stuff about missing her and how good they had it. Which was CRAZY to say to your current girlfriend btw. So yeah, I broke up with him after that. It was kinda mutual, even he admitted it didn’t feel right. Cuz how tf are you in a relationship but in love with someone else??

Later, I realised, he never really liked me. He just liked asking things from me. How do I know? Well, about 2 months after we broke up, he texted me again. And somehow, we fell into the exact same patterns, flirting, talking late, getting a little too comfortable. But this time, it felt off. He would say stuff like, "Remember those late night things we did. We were seriously horney." Like bro, wtf.

Before I say what happened next, just know, back then, I was so head over heels for him, I couldn’t see things clearly. He would send his pictures first, like literally unsolicited, and then manipulate me into thinking I "owed" him something. Cuz, you know, "you already saw mine, now bless me." He would word it so carefully that it made me feel guilty for not sending anything back. Ik for some people this might not sound like a big deal, but for me it was. Yk I also have some self respect or dignity to save. Cuz, now he isn't my boyfriend, he is just another person. I kept asking myself, "We’re not even in a relationship anymore, why is he acting like this?" I kept thinking like maybe now he is over his ex and he wants to get back with me? I was so desperate for his attention, I just... did what he asked.

And it wasn’t just once. It kept happening. He would send pictures first (idk why he never thought that was weird himself) and then ask me for something in return. A whole year went by like that.

It was only recently that I finally realised He never wanted a relationship with me. He just wanted an option to turn to whenever he felt "horny". That’s all I was to him.

I never actually wanted to send him anything. I always felt weird about it deep down. But I didn’t know what else to do to keep him around. He would always say the nicest things, whenever he wanted something, so ofc I believed he liked me. But he didn’t. He didn’t compliment me because he genuinely liked me, he complimented me cuz he liked my body.

So recently, i stopped talking to him without explaining anything. Just sending pictures might not be a big deal for people but it felt really weird to me like I was so uncomfortable, when he did that. I always kinda thought of him as the nice gentleman guy even tho he is a year younger. I always thought that as I was a year older, he was like more "innocent" than me. I always used to hear about him being all smart af in school etc. he was like good at studies too and i always had this picture of him as someone who understood things and knew what is wrong and right. He wasn't innocent at all. Infact he knew exactly how to make me feel guilty for not sending him things. He would ask and ask and ask until i said yes. I'm a coward for not realising it earlier. Idk how I fell for it, I feel stupid.

Ishould probably ghost him entirely? Or should I not? Idk cuz our parents are so close, i feel kinda "guilty" of not keeping good relationships with him. His mom is really nice but yeah idk.

That was more of a rant rather than a question on AITAH lol. Anyways thanks for reading this far.

Edit: i should mention my age and some timeline. I'm 19F now. When all this happened, It was between my 17-18 years. We were in relationship in highschool and broke up before i graduated highschool and then everything continued after i graduated highschool and he was in his senior year. (the part that happened after our breakup).