To start with i’m a 19 year old, turning 20 this year, whose come to college in another city. Now with that out of the way let’s move to the main “problem” if you can call it that, I angered my mom tonight by going out spontaneously with some old friends, like high school classmates. We just met to play board games at a friends place, same neighbourhood like a 5 minute walk from my place. Since it all happened in a short of time, I got the message an hour beforehand, so I just kinda decided on a whim if i should go or not and didn’t really have time to message her about it, she later called me when i arrived and of course i told her where I was and with whom, she didn’t seem really thrilled just told me not to stay late. We started playing at 7:30 pm and had a lot of fun, when that round ended we just decided to play another, it’s not like we got carried away it was like 9 pm when we started that and by 10 she messaged me if I left, I told her where playing another round and it probably would be another 30 minutes before we call it a night, she got mad. It’s not the first time she does this, it’s kind of a habit if you could say, I go out and at some point she just keeps messaging me asking if i’m going to stay more, pressuring me into going home, it makes me anxios every time to the point where i’m impulsively checking my phone as to not miss a message to not aggravate her mood. I’m sick of this, I’m sick of leaving gatherings early because of this, I’m sick of not being able to enjoy time out with people/friends. I’m not the most socially active person, more of an introvert, not very good with words, more of a listener, this is making it difficult for me to just socialise, can’t count how many times I’ve just decide to stay home instead of going out just to “keep the peace”. Maybe this is just a rant, cause really i don’t have who to tell, but am I the asshole? Can I somehow bring this up in such a way as not to make the situation worse?

Edit: got home at 10:45 messaged her and i apologised now but she didn’t seem to have seem the messages, didn’t respond, i told her that it wouldn’t happen again and that i’m sorry, that i know that it doesn’t help and i can’t say anything that would but i just went out with some old friends whom i haven’t seen in like almost a year