My best friend and I have been friends for 2 years now and to cut short she’s emotionally immature , she does stuff that hurts me and when I tell her “hey , this wasn’t really nice of you , pls don’t do it again” She’ll go on and on about how bad she is and victimise herself OR she’ll try to point out stuff I do that supposedly hurt her but she never points out , instead of accepting her mistake and doing something about it and that makes me so mad For example recently, she went to this trip to a place ive been dreaming to visit to and she lies to me that she’s going some place “religious” and I don’t really know much about her religion so I kept quite and one day I was saying to her that “oh i should try convincing my parents to go to my dream place while she’s on her trip so we wont miss more classes” and she goes “isn’t there some issues going on in that place” now i really thought she just cared about me , or did she just not want me to go, when I asked her where exactly is she going , she said she didn’t wanna “jinx it” and few hours before her flight she tells me where she is going and when I confront her about this she just says “i didn’t know until late “ which i am sorry what? She was weeks before excited which i did find weird for a “religious” place , and thats not it , if she does something wrong and i am clearly upset she gets more upset and she’s been doing it since so long , she’s so competitive it makes me furious, can’t i have normal friendships please? , she’s jealous even , she never ever compliments me until I ASK her to and she gets SAD when I do something nice / productive and its not even because of the trip hiding thing , I’ve resented her for soo many things she did , the trip was just a snap , i have ABSOLUTE no friends, like none of them and i struggle mentally, so i can’t let her go , because i am going to be so miserable and I can’t risk being more mentally messed up since its my senior year of high school, idk i just don’t like her anymore , she justs drains me so much , but at the same time i qm too emotionally attached, i don’t know