It’s hard to put into a title but heres what happened. Two years ago i wad admitted to psych ward for my mental health, and made friends with someone we’ll call yuki while i was there. We talked after i got out and hung out a lot in person for the next few months, and got pretty close. The thing was, yuki was a horrible friend. Terrible at conversation, self centered and mean. They often bullied and mocked my interests, (my hero academia specifically), and overall barely contributed to the friend ship. They also knew my other friend, we’ll say sheldon, and had a huge obsession over them. Thing is, that was completely my fault, I’ll come back to that. Anyway skip forward like two months and its june, we’re hanging out at the amusement park and i start to have a heat stroke. We go to the nurse there but other than that yuki did seem to care. It made me start to think she didn’t actually care about me, which spoiler, she didn’t. Skip ahead again and its the fourth of july, sheldons bday, and i’m at her house to celebrate. I got to sleep early because i slept late and she wakes me up around 11pm, crying, about how she od’ed the bathroom parallel to me. While i was at her house. On her crush’s, and my bestfriends, birthday. Safe to say i was a little distraught. She left the house to get her stomach pumped, and didn’t come back to her house until 11am the next day. I had no clue if she was alive or not all night. She ends up living but now her parents are making me watch her so she doesn’t do it again, (i js wanna go home,) and she’s still barely talking to me. Two days after she starts dating my bsf, which is again my fault because i introduced them, and gets diabolically unstable about sheldon. She cried to me about how they didnt love her, when they had been dating for like two days. Like a month more of this BS and i call her out on it, saying shes immature for her age, (older than me), disrespectful, mean and a terrible friend. It was paragraphs and didn’t even fit into one discord message.

Just looking back, i don’t know if i shouldve stayed her friend to help her. I feel bad and hopes she gets better but she was bad to me, and i just didn’t want to deal with that. I was there for her when we were friends but i completely dropped her after, aitah?