So I (15F) have a really small appetite. Two tears back I had a really bad mental health period and it was horrible it’s never been as bad as that but my mental health never truly recovered and it got much worse mid last year. There were some other things going on with some people I knew and their mental health with brought back a lot of emotions for me and was really hard.A few weeks ago my parents decided to get preferential health for me , I’ve got a therapist at school and a group of people form a mental health company for teenagers and kids. This company also have professional nutritionists and while we ( My dad 38M, mum 43F , younger brother 11M and I ) were at our house to meet me and get intel on my family and life , my mum mentioned that she was concerned about my health and that opened up an hour long talk about my health habits and about how I may have an eating disorder.

Anyway yesterday was a really bad day for me and I hadn’t eaten anything. At dinner I was forced to eat and really wasn’t feeling it but I knew I want getting out of it so chose the largest piece of chicken thinking it would get me off the hook… news flash it didn’t. I finished and sat listening in on the conversation going on between my family ( parents , younger and older 20M brothers and uncle ) my mum told me to eat something more andI told her I wasn’t hungry , she told me that she didn’t care and I needed to eat. During the time I fished up some veggies on my plate and she went back to talking. The conversation was something about pants my mum was wearing ( my brother was making fun of her for it and my family was joining in ) they were all just joking but I spoke up and said something about how we should all step back because she’s old and probably having a mid life crisis.

It really doesn’t sound that bad writing it out but I have to admit that it was pretty cruel the way I said it.The table went silent and my mum gave me a look I’d never really seen before and I could tell that I went too far. My family started talking to each other and telling “ wow “ and things like that. I said that it was probably true stood up to walk away.

I knew she was hurt and I kinda feel bad but also don’t regret a thing … am I the asshole ?