I (15f) started dating when I was thirteen. Like many other 13yo I had no idea about what a relationship was. And though I'm not completely mature now either, I have grown to realise more than 13yo me ever could. With that said, I'd like to address my experience. So roughly 2-3 years ago, I started dating one of my guy friends, Nick (fake names ofc). He was a decent guy but again, a thirteen year old with the maturity of one. I thought I was in love with him but turns out as I now realise, maybe I just felt left out because some of my other friends were already in relationships or had been in one. I used to text him all the time about every little thing that ever happened to me. Even now, we're friends and he's become someone I've learnt to trust in the light that we were both just stupid kids back when all of this happened. Anyways, Nick was not only my friend but also my bestfriend, Hannah's. In fact, he was her bestfriend. I'd known Hannah since we were toddlers, I believe. We grew up together too. Nick wasn't very into this relationship as I could sense. But this was the time I was stupidly telling him I loved him though in reality, I still don't understand what love is because I'm just a kid. One day he just randomly texted me and broke up with me and I told him to do it irl rather than through text. But he said and I quote, "I don't want to see you cry." I admit I'm a bit of a crybaby but it doesn't feel good when it's pointed out while you're being broken up with. I asked him why he wanted to break up with me and he said that I was overdramatic, childish and overall a huge scene maker and oversensitive. I couldn't even deny and I frankly do not remember what I responded with as it was two years ago and I deleted our chats because I was mad. I also left the five person group chat we had(Me, Hannah, Nicole, Nick, Alvin) on Instagram after saying, "I need time." I was later added back into the group chat only to see the messages they'd sent after I'd left. It was Hannah and Nick who were texting. Hannah said, "I thought you said you were going to wait another week until you broke up with her!" This might seem irrelevant to some but to me, Hannah was one of my closest, most trusted friends so I felt betrayed that she wouldn't tell me that my bf didn't have feelings for me. I said I felt betrayed and the fight that followed is still in a blur for me. I was accused of guilt tripping to gain my friends' favour when I was mad about being kept in the dark about how he truly felt about me. So one thing led to another and everyone turned against me. I was left with no friends for atleast a month. I had to go to school, sit silently and act as if everything was okay when my world had come crashing down. This seems a bit too dramatic but I actually felt all this at the time. The two friends that I'd grown up with since we'd learnt to talk weren't allowed to talk to me. And no one really liked me in my class either..so I had no friends. The worst part was, I had to invite myself to Hannah's birthday party because if I didn't go, not only her mom but my mom would suspect that something was wrong too. I got her the most expensive gift she got that day, a really nice pair of sneakers. Idk what I was trying to achieve with that but I did it anyways. Throughout the party, no one talked to me except Nicole. Her parents went out, leaving us alone at home. Every ten minutes, whenever they "wanted to talk about something important" I was asked to leave the room and wait outside. I eventually ended up leaving early. I vaguely remember crying in the bathroom after coming home. I was so hurt that day. Later she told me how she wanted to talk to me and how she wasn't mad at me anymore but Nick wouldn't let her. Eventually, we became friends again. We couldn't be without eachother and ofcourse, I APOLOGIZED FOR EVERYTHING. And Nick and I also became good friends again after a while. I still haven't forgotten about this incident and it hurts from time to time remembering that if I never apologised for being hurt and feeling (even if perhaps delusionally) betrayed that she wouldn't tell me something like this. The story actually goes on until New year's eve. But this getting a bit too long so I'll update this post later.