I (36F) and my husband (36M) have been married for 7 years together for 17 years and known each other since we were 8. We have two daughters together aged 9 and 5. Two years a go I found out that my husband who works nights, was going on onlyfans, not when out at work, but when he was home upstairs and I was downstairs on my days off doing the housework. I told him that I wasn't comfortable with him doing this and that it made me feel sick, it destroyed my self-worth and confidence. He promised to stop. Fast forward two years later, he has become very distant, he works 5 nights a week, I hardly see him, and when he is home he is either asleep or sat on his phone. This made me paranoid and so one night when he was working I looked through his tablet. I found that he was still on onlyfans, not only that he had been going on it a lot, almost everyday since January. Days when I'm home and he's supposedly upstairs asleep he was up there on onlyfans, even on our daughters birthday and on valentines day he was doing this. I am a sexual person, I have been trying to initiate things but he pushes me away, and now that I have found this I feel like I am not good enough for him. I don't look like any of the 177 women that he is following on there, or instagram. I have put on weight recently and his actions have caused me to feel unloved, unwanted, disrespected, he broke my boundaries, I feel disgusting to be honest! I asked him to leave the house and he has been staying at his mums since, but he messages me constantly, telling me that I am hurting our daughters for not letting him back... I feel so conflicted, so many different thoughts going through my mind and I just want some clarity or maybe some validation, AITAH?