I (21F) have had feelings for my (21F) friend for months now and we have been friends for a little close to a year, we go to uni together and hang out all of the time, and she uses my make up all the time so she knows my taste in it, this is important for later. Shes one of my closest friends and i once gifted her a lipstick that was such a perfect shade on her she loved it and she keeps boasting about it.

Our friends have decided that they wanted to host a gift exchange for this little party we were throwing, and I volunteered to be the moderator for us. but since it was just 6 people I just did it manually and had someone pick out the numbers at random and contacted everyone with their secret giftee name, my crush coincidentally got my name and I was overjoyed with that fact. Now a month and so pass by and its the day of the party, I arrived on time for the party and was asked to ask in the our friend gc where everyone is, my crush then proceeded to text the group in the most bothered way ever that she is just NOW picking up her secret gift and is on her way. now I already knew this gift was gonna suck but i tried to stay optimistic. fast forward to the gift exchange part where everyone started receiving their gifts , and they all had great, beautiful, and sentimental gifts they weren't even that expensive too! but it made everyone happy, now comes my turn and my crush gives me this little brown bag and told me to open so its eyes on me, I opened the bag and it turns out she got me a mini lip gloss kit that was hot pink and white. and sure its not the worst gift ever but for context im black and this shade is considered a microagression ( joking) towards me LOWKEYYY!!! and I of course had to act happy about it cuz I didnt wanna make a scene or seem ungrateful but it made me really sad actually it ruined my vibe for the party and I went back home and I was like im PRETTTTY MUCH over her cuz of this gift. now I have finished sulking around over the gift and got over it but then a few days later my cousin came over to my house and saw the lip kit and asked what did you order? I was like what... and she said you got this freebie from this website, and then it clicked she didnt get me a gift she actually just bought the brown bag and put the freebie in it and gave it to me... now mind you I do love makeup and her heart is in the right place but it was just too much carelessness thrown into the gift and that really was what broke my heart. after that I cant lie I cant help but treat her a bit coldly its not even about the crush anymore its about knowing she doesn't give a DAMN!!! about me .

AITAH for getting upset over this and losing feelings for her after this... lmk