There is this subject that I'm really good at and they solicited my help at library studies cause I normally don't go to library with them. The first day I was supposed to go, I canceled for personal reasons and I went on the second day. Theu had actually changed the subject they were going to study and therefore didn't need my help that day. The group studies also didn't go as well. I covered less topics in several hours. Needless to say, I regretted going and that unmotivated me to go again. Fast forward to a day before we're supposed to write a test on this subject I'm good at, they ask me to go but prior to that we had had two tests that made me stay up studying for three days. I was exhausted and as a person who hates going out anyway, I didn't want to go. So I sent them a text that I would help them via WhatsApp instead, they send the question, then I help them solve it. I told them I wasn't going to be there physically. Now a friend brought to my attention that I did them bad by not going so I'm feeling guilty. Another reason why I didn't go is because I have the inverted triangle body shape and have resulted ti wearing only dresses sommy funny physique doesn't show much but I've got not that many dresses and I plan on wearing them on the days we have tests. I can wear Jean's cause I'm super insecure about my body. I take hope in the fact that school will go on a break soon after these exams and I won't have to go out. I feel bad because did I really have to let them down because I'm tired and because I didn't have anything to wear? Is this a wrong use of "I gotta put me first"? If I'm in the wrong, please suggest what I can do to redeem myself or save face effective immediately or how I can make it up to them. Thank you for reading