I (13f) stopped my niece (4f) from sitting on my lap. It was a sleepover with my cousins, all of them older, from 16 to 35. I was sleepy, niece was hyperactive, she was about to sit but I gently guided her to my sister instead, because she was open to it. Niece couldn't care less, she respects boundaries. My (24f) cousin exclaimed, "did you just reject her?" I responded monotonously, "yeah?" "Why?" "Because it's not a pain for children to know that they aren't entitled to me all the time?" "She shouldn't be rejected by you!"

Then everyone else proceeded to say a variety of things: "She is just a teenager, cut her some slack." "So stupid" "She is like (another cousin, universally hated for being autistic.)" "Immature" "Children are children." "She wasn't treated like this when she was a child." "What's wrong with her." "Brainless." "Guess she wasn't smart afterall."

Sleepover ends, I am back to my aforementioned cousin's house, she asks why my mood is off, I ask why she was annoyed at me for asserting my boundaries, it's good for child development. She started shouting, "You don't know how to raise children, you read a lot of books but you still dont. Let adults do their job. It wasn't your intention to do good for her anyway, you are selfish. Children shouldn't be rejected."

I have a poker face, I do not feel empathy for others, I do not talk to them, these activities are borderline forced, my mother has seen me "manipulating" others and has whispered everywhere that I am a cunning liar, yeah. When I was 9 years old, my uncle related to the niece, said that he is going to kidnap me, jokingly, he used to annoy me till i cried as everyone else laughed, so then i said i am gonna kidnap niece, he said i will have to change her diapers, so then I juet smiled and said that i am gonna kill her. Like kidnappers do. I have no concept of good or bad but i do not announce this stuff and the like anymore. It's not as though i can converse with these dimwits about my neurodivergance, or mental illness, whatever you call it, like civilised people, i do not fancy being demonized, like i was when i said that. And whenever i have to meet them they tell me to stop reading, tell me to socialize. Patronize me if i were to keep it short. Everytime. And that my brain isn't yet developed enough, they say that as they face my valid points. They force me into their religion too.

This isn't an isolated case, happens everyday and it's not supposed to be a big deal.

I do not understand anything, it is as though humans speak a foriegn tongue. This isn't even the right sub as I couldn't care less if I was socially unpalatable in this interaction or I broke a major moral law. I don't understand anything. They get one thing spot on in calling me an alien. People are insufferably entitled, narrow visioned and shallow if i were to simplify it. I have tried to kill myself twice but the noose was too loose and the pills, well, they made me puke. I am posting this incident as it is pretty recent and it made me spiral into the nihilism that has shadowed me ever since I gained the ability to think.