I know the title might be a bit confusing, but anyways i downloaded reddit to hear from you guys.

I have 2 best friends, Alice and Ella. Im a bit closer with Alice because Ella is very rude and hits us, really hard. She hit our other friends head (who shes sitting with) against the wall till she started seeing black, and she was too scared to tell our homeroom teacher (basically the teacher that takes care of us) because Ella is our geography teachers daughter so that kinda sums her up, she does anything she wants because she can get away with it in our country since she has the privileges. Before i became friends with Alice and Ella, i was friends with a girl named Emily. Emily was controlling, manipulative, she didnt want me to make other friends, was very clingy and used to fight with me everyday over the smallest things, and she still harasses me to this day but idrc since she moved away and ive archived her on whatsapp. I have expressed this with Ella and Alice. Alice was kind about it and has respected my boundaries, meanwhile Ella holds my hand and sprints to me to hold my hand and like but her arm around (even though i hate physical touch and have told her that before) me before Alice can, I can’t help but feel really mean for wanting to be with Alice. Our school trip is coming up and shes basically forcing me to sit with her, my sister who was friends with her cousin (same exact situation) told me to just hit her back because thats the only way she will stop but im very weak and my teacher is strict, and i would get most of the blame since Ella is the daughter of a teacher. Alice tried to step in and be like “I’ll give you the window seat” in a joking manner when Ella told me “we need to sit in the front and i NEED the window seat.” but then Ella threatened me. I dont want to be friends with her anymore but Im scared that my geography teacher will hold a grudge. And on the school trip i fear she’ll hit me and maybe even push me off my seat then start watching anime, like last year which ruins the whole experience because the funnest part is the bus ride. And can anyone give me advice, I’m not really experienced with this type of thing so i don’t have a clue what to do in this situation. I can’t help but feel like a mean girl. She also texted me to go out, and Alice did too but i can’t help but want to go out with Alice, because one time we told her to meet us at a store and she literally grabbed our other friend (the one she sits with in school) by her ponytail, ripped some hair out and when we tried to “lighten” the mood by laughing (even the girl who she literally abuses at this point) she called us Cinderella’s stepsisters and the witches from snow white. Reddit, AITAH?