We have been together for 8 years and anytime marriage came up something happened. And during Covid we grew distant. After that we had a lot happen to the point of extreme length of unemployment, verbal and emotional abuse, lying, and even virtual infidelity. We agreed this was a new year but there are moments like today, my partner just says stuff, and it makes me question it.

To give more context, I create and have 0 mastery. I just love making stuff as I get inspired. This goes from drawing, painting, making YouTube shorts, videos, etc. I have been like this my whole life. Well, he said, on a few seperate occasions this week cause I got an art kit I've been trying to use, that I'm not creative and it's not like I'm a professional so why am I asking friends for drawing tips or so anxious to try my kit out. Instead he keeps putting movies on we want to watch when I say I'm going to draw. Or I'll have to cook or do housework. And by time I get done, and off work, working out, etc I don't have time. Last night the told me I must be going through a midlife crisis and I'm trying to be like my grandma. Because I started a short story I got a brain blast for and thought of some sketches for it. Earlier he said something about a manga idea. And I said create it. I'll sketch it. And his reply was I don't need to constantly create senseless nonsense like you.

Sorry if all over but AITA for letting this impact my decision?