I recently fallen out of a friendship with someone I love dearly.

A little back story, I met her in college when I just reentered the new semester from taking 1 semester break due to mental health issue. I had always struggled with depression and anxiety as well as adhd so college was hell for me.

She was the roomate of my closest friend so I always go to her room to meet my friend and she always smile at me and try to stir up conversation. She would always tell me I'm beautiful because she knows I'm struggling with body image issue and always try to include me in the classes activities and trip.

When my friend who was her roomate went for internship she would message me constantly asking when am I gonna come to her room. She would invite me out to eat and include me in multiple group chats and send me funny videos. I felt the friendship was genuine and I've grown fond of her.

We became very close to the point I considered her my best friend. After internship we meet again for final year but due to the schedule and us taking different majors we no longer get to meet each other often. So I always would like to go to the one class we have together and ride with her and her new roomate. Due to my adhd I also struggle to study and work on my own and I need people to be around me.

I would sometimes go to her room to work on school projects and even ask if I could stay and just study in her room. But I felt a shift in how she treated me. She became distance. She won't let me come to her room anymore. We never go out to eat together and on the occasion that we did she would keep quiet. That was last semester. This semester I change my major to the same major as her just so I can spend more time with her. Every morning I would carpool with her and her roomate which is also my close friend and we would go to class together.

One day I was late and she finally texted me telling me how I'm an inconvenience to her and her roomate for kept needing to carpool with them despite having my own car and I was inconsiderate of their time for being late. I ask her if there's something else that she has an issue with me and she said that I kept crossing her boundaries by kept coming to her room.

I stopped talking to her altogether but it still hurt everytime I think about the loss of our friendship because I love her so much. I never meant to cross any boundaries or inconvenient anyone. I just wanted to spend more time together. And since I stopped carpooling with them to class, I always ended up on time but they are always at least 15 minutes late so I felt like it was an unfair judgement on her side.