Sooo I'm 18 now and this memory just came back to me... I found it in a notebook I wrote it in (I typed all of it from the book a bit is edited because I'm older now ya know

Background info: I am still dating the same boy I was back then: C he's my boyfriend

Back when I was 13 I was in Florida for spring break, and since I'm pretty responsible my parents let me go to the pool by myself. (You can walk to the beach from the condo and there is 2 pools outside on the patio, it's Florida) And it was like around 8 pm so it was dark out, and I am a people person so I went up to this boy(I'll call him T) and I introduced myself, he was 15 and really pretty; tan, muscular, juicy lips and brown fluffy hair (like the popular type of hair now and days) and he taught me to do a backflip into the pool. We got tired and we went to our rooms, I got his number and the next day and we met back up at the pool, I went to the hot tub and he came with, we were alone and I was being dumb and I said "if you drink the hot tub water I'll give you a kiss" and he said no thanks. So we split up and I got a tan and he hung out with his brother. Later I went back to the hot tub and we were alone agian', this time he said to me "if you drink the water I'll give you a kiss" and I didn't believe him so i was like "no you wouldn't" and he was saying "I will do it I'll show you" and I guess my dumb 13 year old brain was like "mm this is sus... I'll do it!" And I did drink the water...

He brought me to the bathroom (it was one of those family restrooms with one room ya know what I mean) he locked the door and pinned me to the wall and started making out with me, bro was licking me from the inside out (I'm reading what I wrote and im concerned...) T started rubbing me and I was wearing a bikini and he slipped his hand under my bottoms... I pulled away and I said "uhh... What?" And he said sorry and didn't do it again, he continues to kiss me and someone knocks on the door and T covers my mouth and says "don't say anything" and he said I'm in here to the person knocking on the door. After like 5 minutes we leave and I leave to my room...

Later around 9 pm it was rainy and dark and T texts me to meet him in the bathroom again so I do, and he opens the door to let me into the pool bathroom where we were before and kisses me agian', and I have vasovagal syncope so i pass out when im anxious and i pass out in his arms. So he sits down with me in his lap and all I remember is him whispering "your okay I've got you" and I wake up and he kisses me, so i get up and sit next to him and i tell him "I have a boyfriend ya know..." And I kid you not he said "well f your boyfriend hes not here just don't tell anyone" and he pulls my head onto his shoulder and starts rubbing my inner thigh. He then tells me to sit on his lap, so I do and he keeps kissing me. I feel his hand once again try to get under my bottoms... And I tell him not to... So we stand up and he keeps kissing me, now i dont feel comfortable becuase he told me to like him not my boyfriend ive been with for 1 year at the time, now T grabs my bottoms with both hands and tried to take them off, i pull away and he grabs my butt.

After a while of me getting raped we go back to our rooms and I get a text of him saying

(Quoting the text)

"You were really good at that. Imma be completely honest with you, I cummed a little"

So I was a 13 year old who almost got pregnant...

I called my boyfriend immediately and told him what happened and he was and still is very very very mad at T for raping me...

I didn't know what to do... Help