My whole life I've been ignored. I'm in a family of 9, (7 kids 2 adults) I'm the 5th child, and have never been particularly special. For many holidays on end, I've been forgotten in celebrations and such. Just recently, it was my mother's birthday and I left to use the bathroom which was the perfect time for them to sing happy birthday. I was obviously upset given the fact they just blatantly forgot about me. My own mother, at that. I was upset, which I think is appropriate regarding the situation and my eyes began to water. I try not to be childish, but this has been a pattern that has always made me upset. my mother made us all redo the singing, to try to make me feel better but it felt like I was a nuisance so I said no, but we did anyway. Now, most of my older siblings consider me rude and that I will get upset if I don't get what I want. I've always tried to change their opinion about me but we have about a 3 year age gap, making it hard to find things in common. My oldest sibling is 6 years apart from me, and I feel incredibly stupid to even be writing this today. I was feeling better yesterday and I was happy to spend today with my family, helping the youngest search for eggs and grab some myself for a little treat. However, I was forgotten again. I came upstairs to see them already searching, with my mother recording them and cheering them on. By the time I stepped outside, I was fighting back tears. I was so excited and I thought last time was going to be it. That I was going to be regarded as important again. When I was outside, I simply sat down on the stairs, not bothering to search, and tears just flowed down. My father, who was on video call since he was out of state, said to stop making things about me. I don't understand how I did, considering I was keeping to myself as I was crying, but I didn't respond. Once everyone finished I got up and walked inside. The only other person inside was my brother, which I then remembered jokingly remembered saying I was too lazy to play outside. He apparently told me mom I didnt want to do this Easter, and she didn't wait to ask me or even check if that was what I said in the first place. I cussed at him and said some pretty hurtful things, I admit. But I'm tired of being left out. At this point they won't remember my upcoming birthday or better yet, celebrate without me, eating my cake. I cried after this and upon heading back upstairs for water, I just saw my family peacefully at their own devices, not bothering to check up on me. They're not responsible to feel things for me, I know that, it just hurt to see them not give a shit even though I was clearly hurt. My dad says I overreacted, and my mom just shrugged it off. I don't know how to apologize or if this incident was my fault in the first place. AITAH?