Context I 15 f had a exhosting exam season with 10 subjects back to back with no rest and right after wich there was summer school to prepare for sophomore year right after wich I got a bacterial fever ( rickettsia) with hepatitis and arthritis.....ik I am so fed up with life at this point nothing is going right. We finally get a 20 day break in wich we had to complete 15 projects and assignments . So my mental space isnt in a really good place rn I have these fake silver hoop earrings wich I've been wearing from past 3 years I love them it's kind of like my identity and means a lot to me . My mother thinks that apparently the earings make me look like a boy and they r not good for my health like what the heck is that supposed to mean. She forcefully made me remove them and wear gold earrings. I felt like my identity was being stripped from me ..I acted out calling my parents out for not understanding me like I study so hard to please them and they get pissed of that I don't like gold earrings or because I'm a introvert....I said something along the lines of I wish u were never born....she keeps pestering me about how bad I am or qout how they didn't raise me right. I feel so bad