I 14NB , have a sister which I’ll call B 22F. This is a throwaway but me and her have a very rocky relationship. Me and her are complete opposites in every way , but my problem with her mostly is how she comments/criticises me a lot.

A few examples of this is that , a few years ago an elder in my family did some messed up things which caused me a lot of damage to me. Causing me to have panic attacks at random and increased anxiety I also have autism, this is key. She has a tendency to say it was all my fault and that I deserved it which I don’t believe but it hurts, way more than I admit to others.

She has also commented on my autism on multiple occasions called me the R slur. I know I’m different than other people , but I feel so bad because I just want my big sister I don’t know who this is anymore. I’m just crying typing this unfortunately.

This elder also hurt me a lot verbally , emotionally , and physiologically which she usually sat back and ignored sometimes joining in which cause me to nearly develop an eating disorder. I’m so scared to be around her most of the time because I don’t want to be judged I don’t mean to be like this I swear , it’s caused me many breakdowns.

Also because of all of these I haven’t been able to attend school for around 9 months now because it got so bad. In a meeting with the school she laughed at my dreams , LAUGHED AT ME? I don’t understand at all.

She also has said that “I sound like a boy”which has caused me to not really like to speak anymore , also has said “if you take medicine you will turn out like a druggie” I take one pill for my migraines?

But the issue is I have one niece and one nephew on the way 3(F) and I don’t want to be separated from them but I can’t do this with this judging.

So , AITAH for wanting to go limited contact with my 22(F) sister?