This is kind of long but I’ll do my best to condense. My now ex bf(29) and I (28f) got together 2 years ago. We were very toxic, the kind to break up and get back together constantly. Lack of trust and communication all around. I got pregnant about six months in and for about half the pregnancy things were still really bad. I offered to pay for therapy bc I wanted better for our child. He went to two sessions then stopped showing up. For the past year and a half, I got therapy and started school again and I’m really happy with the direction of my life. However, I kept getting sucked back into his promises to change and believed him when he said he loved me and wanted to be together. So I have been nothing but loyal and a “great partner” in his words for the past year and a half. My experience is very different. He’s an alcoholic and gets very verbally and emotionally abusive. He convinced me to be a sahm and gradually let me lose everything. My car has been repossessed, all my credit cards closed, and he constantly threatens to not pay my phone bill. I moved out for about a month bc I couldn’t take it anymore and in that month he dramatically changed. Did everything right and explained he wanted me to come back. So like a dummy I came back. I wanted to be a family. I soon after got pregnant again. This pregnancy is much harder. I have a uterine tear and have been bleeding since Christmas. Things have gotten much worse. I found out he ofc has been cheating, lying etc the whole last year. He’s been lying about taking steroids. He’ll disappear for hours to go get drunk and go to the strip club and now I HAVE TO get out. The last thing I want is for my kids to grow up without I dad, but he’s not a good or stable person. His family has always been really kind to me and I still want them in our kids lives but if I take this to court for full custody, idk how they will feel. Should I not care bc it’s my kids? Until he gets professional help, I feel like I don’t really have a choice.

Also, if anyone knows a WFH positions that’s willing to hire pregnant women, I’m all ears. I have a bus admin degree. I don’t have family to go to(foster kid) and he knows this. I’m kind of trapped until I can get a job and finding something pregnant has been incredibly difficult.