I really need advice because I’m feeling completely lost right now.

Recently, we had a farewell party for a mutual friend (F) who’s moving to another country. My partner couldn’t come because she had a family reunion, but I kept updating her throughout the night about what was happening.

During the party, we were drinking, and (F) started getting emotional, telling us how much she would miss everyone. I’m not great at expressing emotions — I usually try to suppress them — so I kept some distance at first.

Later on, (F) asked for a group hug. I joined in along with everyone else. After that, she started hugging people individually, and I was one of them.

I wanted to be transparent, so I told my partner about it. But instead of letting me explain, she immediately berated me, then blocked me on all social media without giving me any chance to talk, I tried to reach out to another mutual frien who i know she tells all her problems to and she told me she hates me.

I genuinely didn’t mean anything wrong by it. It was just a goodbye hug at an emotional moment, when my partner cheated on me i tried my best to fix it even though im so shattered that time and still eventually did, it feels so unfair that now when i need to be the one heard and be understood, she didn't even give me a chance to.

I don’t know what to do now. It's so heavy and i can't even sleep to escape what i'm feeling. What can i do?