I am (F30) and have been married for almost six years. Here's the reason why I am being overprotective and attached to my third child:

1. My first child died just four days after she was born. She passed away while in intensive care in the neonatal unit. The doctor diagnosed her with asphyxia during spontaneous labor, and she was two weeks overdue. I can’t describe how tragic her condition was at that time, with bruises all over her body and her reliance on medical equipment due to her difficulty breathing.

2. After one year, we tried for another child. A beautiful baby boy was born via C-section, but we had another stroke of bad luck. He died in less than three days after he was born, also in the neonatal unit. Just like his sister, but in worse condition. The doctor diagnosed him with asphyxia, sepsis, and an airway obstruction.

3. I was devastated, and it affected my mental state. One year later, I got pregnant unexpectedly. I was afraid because I wasn’t ready to have another child after everything I had been through. I went to many OB-GYNs and had various laboratory tests. My OB-GYN planned to perform a C-section at 37 weeks. And here I am with my beautiful baby girl, whom I am so fond of and adore so much. I feel like 24 hours are never enough—that’s how much I love spending time with her. After losing her two siblings, I can justify why I am being overprotective with her. I don’t trust anyone else to take care of her. Thank God I can bring her to my work. I can’t just leave her with anyone else without my supervision.

But my family is not very supportive. They criticize me and laugh at me, thinking my behavior is too much because I don't let my child be close to their grandparents. Why should I understand them when they themselves don’t understand my trauma?