I was in a relationship with a woman who constantly canceled plans at the last minute. She’d tell me I didn’t love her and that I’d eventually get tired of her. Sometimes she even told me to find someone else. When I wasn’t able to see her, she’d complain about it — but whenever I made the effort and said I’d come over, she’d say her room was a mess. Every time I tried to express myself or talk about something that bothered me, she’d hit me with, “If you don’t like it, I’ll leave.”

On top of that, she often tried to make me jealous by telling me that people were asking if she was single. Once, she blocked me on WhatsApp, only to text me later saying she missed me. Not long after, her mom called, asking what had happened and whether I still loved her daughter. Then my ex herself called, inviting me to her mother’s birthday party.

Eventually, she sent me a message saying she loved me, that she missed me more than she expected, and asked if I wanted to come over. I said no — and she accused me of abandoning her, insisting it was my choice, and asking if I was happy with my decision. She told me she’d given up on the idea of us getting back together and asked me not to contact her anymore so she wouldn’t get false hope. She said I had taken her happiness away and demanded I give it back.

I’m honestly so confused that I’ve been on the verge of doing something really stupid. This relationship was full of contradictions, mixed signals, and emotional distance on her part. I eventually broke up with her, but now I keep wondering whether I made the right decision. Every day, the thought of ending my life feels stronger. I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.

Her behavior was a constant cycle of jealousy, coldness, and confusion, which she always explained away as insecurity. I feel lost and miserable. I never wanted to go through this, and I’m scared I might end up doing something reckless.

She used to suggest I should find someone else, avoided sharing her social media, seemed distant when I wanted to be close, constantly broke her promises, and got upset over the smallest things I said. Whenever I tried to open up emotionally, she would disappear.

I don’t even know what I did wrong. My feelings for her were always real. But the situation was so complicated. Every time I tried to see her, she’d make excuses. Sometimes she’d try to make me jealous on purpose, and she even encouraged me to install dating apps — and after we broke up, I found her on those same apps.

One time, she told me she wasn’t going to a party, so I said I’d go to church instead. But then, out of nowhere, she decided to go to her friend’s party anyway. When I brought it up, she insisted I should still go to church while she went to the party.

I told her that if she didn’t want me there, she could’ve just said so. She claimed I’d hurt her. I asked if I could come over earlier that day to spend some time together before the party, but she refused. Even so, I still went, bought two chocolates, and waited for her outside. Her sister saw me and invited me in, and my ex introduced me to her friends as her boyfriend. But later that same night, right in the middle of the party, she suddenly turned to me and said: “Should we download an app and find you a hot girl?”