this story started last year in january 2024. sorry if the grammar in this is bad i am very tired just want some opinions on this. alright so in the first 8 years of my life we have had to move around a lot due to my dads work. i always hated it due to constantly being the new kid and was never really able to settle into a new area due to just moving again, my parents knew this. But when i was 9, we finally stopped moving around and got a house in a neighbourhood that we would live in up untill now. i was able to get a great group of friends and we where all super close we all went into highschool and things only got better, i made more friends and really felt like i belonged with that group. untill late 2023 when out of nowhere with no reason. my mum and dad told me that they where going to make me switch schools. still to this day i had no idea why. i begged them not to and cried every time they brought it up but i was still sent there. so febuary 2024 i started attending the new school. the first day wasnt so great. everyone called me the f slur and i started to get bullied very badly, nasty comments to slamming my head into a wall or just shoving or punching me. i was not very good at my schoolwork leading to the teachers picking on me and yelling at me in front of the class, calling me names, etc. i stopped talking to my friends as much and i slowly drifted apart with most of them. i got very depressed feeling lonely and left out and i began to act distant from my parents and everyone else around me. i didnt talk much at all and this really bothered my parents every day i would come home from a horrible day at school just to be yelled at by my mum and dad. they would always scream things like "stop acting like this" "whats wrong with you?" "why cant you just be normal" "snap out of it" "you ruin everything" etc. eventually it got to the point where i was self harming and then that lead to me trying to commit. it was a constant cycle of misery that i couldnt get out of. one night i had had enough and i tried being honest to my mum about how i was feeling and that if they could possibly change me back to my old school, i might start feeling better. i told her everything about he self harming, trying to commit, the bullying. and her response was yelling at me to suck it up and that i was being a bitch. fast forward to now i am still being bullied i barely talk to anyone anymore, i have tried to commit more times. i still self harm and im still depressed, i eat barely anything and im addicted to v8. my mum still yells at me, but my dad has started pretending like nothing happened and everything is fine. he does still snap almost once a week though due to me being distant and not talking to either of them. both my parents have told me that i need to start treating them better and that i need to suck it up. im really sorry that this is long but i just dont know what to do, i dont have anyone i can talk to about it and i just think that i need some opinions.