So I am a female and I live with my parents and they are actually into a open marriage even though they get into fights sometimes about it but yeah. So my mom had a boyfriends when I was 9 years old and I hateddd him like a lot. If was first cheating but then it turned more into open marriage. My father has cheated on my mother multiple times so later on my mom was lonely and wanted attention. Later on as things for more and more serious they started having sex in our house privately. They were trying to be secretive but I could see th and I used to cry a lot I hated them together but as I went more into my sexual fantasies I started imaginating him fucking me but after that was done I hatedhimg again it's more like a kink and I don't know what do it about it anymore.