So this happened just now so what happened was my mom had just gotten up and she kind of just was sitting down and started to get to work on her computer and she asked me if I had watched any movies and told her I haven’t watched any movies yet because I didn’t get to watch one last night but she also brought up me going to this place, and she was trying to bring me to this class and we ended up having to miss it because the following weeks I was sick so she was saying that I was making up excuses not to go and blah blah blah. Now I won’t lie sometimes just like any person we all make up excuses for things, but I told her those days I wasn’t making a excuse about it and she brought it up once and I thought she wasn’t gonna bring it up again but this day she did bring it up again and I just got annoyed and started saying I wasn’t making excuses for it we didn’t argue about it but anyways back to the movie conversation so I told her I wasn’t watching any movies because I didn’t get to watch them last night and I was probably going to watch them today and maybe go outside for a little bit and she told me don’t go outside without her, which I can’t understand, but it’s just the fact that she said it in a way that sounded like I was untrustworthy of anything so we kind of ended up arguing for a little bit and then she said actions speak louder than your actions into what you’re still a human and humans do what they do and I got mad at her and started arguing with her because she made it sound like I have done something so big and so horrible to make me untrustworthy to make her not trust me anymore and she just kind of kind of felt like she was just assuming that I would just go outside without our permission and I told her and even asked her do I go outside without your permission and she said no so it’s just the fact that why would I go outside without her permission when every time I go outside I have to go outside with her watching me with her supervision. I have to go outside with the door open so she can watch me from the screen door to make sure that I’m safe. Yes, I get it but the fact that she made it sound like I was untrustworthy and that she was assuming every action I made people assume things about other people, but she made it sound like I was very untrustworthy person and I told her well people assume every action I do it kind of feels like everybody assumes everything I do and she kind of felt like she was ignoring that part and just said well I’m not gonna argue with you anymore, but I still was pissed off at her for making this situation seem like I was in this very untrustworthy person and I know that she trust me a lot about different things and she does trust me a lot, but I just got mad about her making this situation seem like I was a horrible and untrustworthy person because it kind of feels like sometimes I’m just as perfect all that’s meant for everybody else to pass around I know that I’m not being harmed or affected by any of my family members but it just seems like everyone is trying to gaslight me that I’m this toy then I’m not this normal person that I’m just like this person who does horrible and untrustworthy things. That’s what it feels like it doesn’t feel like you’re compassionate towards me. I know that you are as compassionate as you can be towards anyone. I know that she is but it just feels like she’s sometimes on emotional and uncompassionate like this machine that’s what it feels like and I know that she’s not like this but just feels like that like she sometimes just makes the situation worse just like she just makes it feel worse than it actually is and she’s not like this horrible person anyways it just ruined the entire vibe of the day and I’m just pissed off about it. I do admit that I kind of overreacted but still it’s just that the way people have been treating me sometimes it just feels like I’m a pet more than an actual person for you.