Throwaway account.. I am sorry for my bad english..I(15) f has been struggling alot living with my parents , mother(40) father (43) and i had a brother Who's 17.. well the thing here is my parents were high school sweethearts and they got married , they had my brother first and had me after 2 years.. I had to clarify a thing first , they were good to me sometimes but they are toxic af.. From my whole life I had known ,they have always been fighting ... My childhood memories? fights and i only remember them.. Back then ,my dad used to beat my mom and my mother also does the same back.. But after fights ,they will makeup and here I am till too this day ,I get scared and anxious ,my heart beats fast whenever I listen someone raise their voice.. especially these days... In maybe 2019 ,my mom had an affair ,the affair is still continuing and what she doesn't know is that me and I am pretty sure my brother also know about it.. how she got into an affair you ask me? We moved to a new city and new apartment, my mom became friends with 2 women from the same apartment .. they had affairs going on and well a random guy they know said that he likes my mom. She said no first but started an affair later.. I know this cuz she talks about all these things in mobile all the time thinking that I don't listen to them well i do listen to them.. and it grosses me out , well that guy had a wife and children too and he didn't only had affair with my mother but had with another women too and his wife found out about other women but not my mom.. he stopped speaking to my mother after that. she started crying all the time ,this was in 2019 and she used to scream and scold me and my brother all the time cuz of that thinking that she doesn't know that I know. She used to neglect us alot and feed us the same food that she did the day before. And asks the 2 women to feed us so they will give us food while she cries.. my dad doesn't know cuz he used to go to work and she acts normal after that.

That affair my mom had ,she still begs for that guy to talk to her.. till to this day.. well my dad lost his job the same year and he had been trying to get the same job back but it is not happening.. that's like after 6 years.. well from them on more fights were going on in my house .. there hasn't been a day without a freaking fight. Ya it was more traumatising to watch ,I still shiver till to this day.. well my dad had an affair too in 2024 , my mom atleast kept it like a secret but he went full on infront of us ,he used to talk to her infront of me and even in the house when my mom is sleeping ,she found him once talking to her in the morning. She left me and my brother at home and went to her mother's house the day before my brother's exam.. she left for like 1 month and after that my mom called police because of fights and alot of things happened ,we moved to New house and my dad didn't stop talking to her. Once ,he was drunk and talked to her in the other bedroom and it's the day before my brother's birthday ,he came to house for his birthday because he went to university.

My mom showed him his texts with her , he was drunk and started hitting her ,this time she didn't defend. My dad was hitting her that she started bleeding and my brother got into the way and started hitting my dad.. after that ,called the cops and the cops came ,my mom told them to give my dad a warning and leave.. they left and we didn't talk to him for a few days.. after that ,everything settled. But here's the thing , my mom didn't stop talking to her affair partner ,she started begging him to talk to her... But one day ,when my dad is driving me to the school he forgot the routes and don't know where he is taking me. I showed him the directions and then immediately called my mother to tell her to take him to a doctor. He was immediately sent to hospital and admitted there.. He was in there for like 20 days or smtg. He started doing nothing after he came to home because he shouldn't be doing anything. It's been 6 months and he was still not doing anything because he has been getting pains .. my mom over here , still talking to that guy or trying to get to him . But at home ,she is still screaming at my dad for everything ,all i wanted is some peace .. Today , my mom forgot to do something that the house was full of water , I don't how to say it but our house is flooded with water. It's because my mom forgot to do something because she keeps using mobile and once the water came all over the house ,she started talking about my dad and screaming it's because of him that he chose this house. And went into screaming about how he is a bad husband and how he is having an affair and bringing all that our on him. One thing to say about my mom and dad is my dad used to never stand up for my mom infront of his side of family and disgraced her. While my mom, does the same bad stuff as my dad and still blame him for everything.

They keep fighting all the time , I don't even talk to them about anything. My mom started calling me pig and fat and all i know is how to eat since I was in 6th grade. How my I weigh in 6th grade? I was 100 pounds. From then on,she calls me that all the time and I started gaining weight because I started eating whenever I was sad and I am now 130 pounds.. she hasn't stopped it ,whenever I tried to talk about it how it hurts me. She laughs at me and doesn't care ,now I don't even wanna go to hospital because I am worried that she will find out my weight and keeps calling me fat. I am worried that she will say this to my brother and he starts calling me that too.. because my brother also teases me that since I was in 6th because of my mother. I mean they aren't a bad parents to me though ,they treat me well and feed me well but still they are toxic. They buy things that I ask ,not all of them but something small.. I don't ask them for much because I know about their financial issues that if he didn't have any job in a few months , we might run out of the money that we had known from selling our house. As i told you, she started fighting ,now that she stopped ,she acting like nothing happened.. that's why I don't like telling anything to them.

I am sorry for my bad english ,it's not my first language and I have been crying for a while so I wrote this quickly