My 26 year old gf and I 25 year old make been together for 1 year and 5 months. I met her at a nonprofit event for my friends business. My friend and hers were trying to hook us up together but I was not interested at the time. Years later I decided to contact her because I was in a better position in my life. We would also message each other here and there but very surface level.

During our first couple of months of really speaking to each other we hung out and had serious conversations about our beliefs and morals. Hers sounded alike from mine, religion, marriage, family oriented the role of an woman and man. As time went on I got comfortable and I would go on her laptop to watch movies and one day she forgot to close a page on her tabs so I attempted to close it so that the movie that I was about to watch wouldn't glitch while watching it. So instead of clicking the small x button I clicked on the tab itself.

I saw a few cute pictures of herself when she was young with her family and friend and I founded them so adorable and beautiful so I kept looking, feeling like I was the luckiest man alive. As I kept scrolling I ended up seeing pictures of her half naked showing her butt last year in 2023 then videos of her shaking her butt, screenshots of sexual quotes saying stuff like " When we both nut the world is amazing" then a nude of her ex boyfriend. It was too late, I was all the way in looking at everything at that point. To be fair we were in a relationship for about 7 months at that point. At first I didn't confront her about it. Instead I asked her random questions here and there to see if she would lie to me. I asked her if those pictures were sent to any men and she said no she sent it to her girlfriends, I asked her if the videos of her shaking her ass was just for herself and she says yes.

I then asked her what her body count was and she said 6 but later I confronted her about that she came forward and told me it was 8. I was devastated. Weeks past by and I knew deep down that she was lying to me about more things now, and I was so hurt. I didn't see her the same way anymore but I was willing to give her a chance so I asked her the same questions and she came straight forward and she told me there's some pictures and videos that she sent to her ex boyfriend's (3) and some of them to her hookups.

I was devastated and also expressed that I had this view of who she was but it completely changed. She then told me that she was completely embarrassed and she regretted all of that. I tried to move on from all of that but it kept hunting me. I completely lost trust in her for months and she was trying to her best throughout our relationship to show me that she's not who I think she is. She became very much religious compared to when I first knew her, she stopped talking to her guy friends 3 months in our relationships, she stopped talking to her bad influence friends. She honestly was the most loving girlfriend I had but I couldn't look past these lies even tho I tried my best. She would tell me the truth when telling me things but I would automatically think that she was lying therefore it was result in us having issues.

We both met each others family and she was very clear and vocal that I was the best she ever had overall and that she wanted us to get married but I was and still am unsure about that. I guess she wanted to massage my ego therefore she asked me if I wanted to do a sex tape with her & explore all of my kinks and I agreed but that was only short term satisfaction because I would then start thinking who else as she done this for? I eventually asked her and she said nobody, even if she did I wouldn't care at this point on, at this point of our relationship it was more about being truthful. She never lied to me about anything but her past during our first few months of our relationship, she never disrespected me, she never did anything behind my back either we were always together hanging out after work or during our free days.

My trust issues was so bad that I had her Instagram password and she had mine. Fast forward 1 year and 5 months later, I thought I was over all of this until the day we went to my cousins release music video party, she's a pretty big upcoming artists. Her and I are like brothers and sisters. She means alot to me, on our way to the party I told my gf that my cousins friend that might be there gave me a handjob years ago, my gf was mad because I didn't tell her beforehand and to be quite honest I've been very stressed and busy with work I got a promotion in my tech job and making above the average and I am part of the visible minority and I feel like I need to work above and beyond. ( that's another story) anyways I was in the bathroom with my cousins boyfriend and his friend and his friend was telling me that he got head from that same girl and my girlfriend was snooping around trying to listen to our conversation.

She then made this big scene crying to me and calling me a liar and that I think that she's stupid. But little that she knew that never came out of my mouth she misheard the conversation and she thought I was the one who said that I got hear but I never did. In fact I never lied to my gf about my sexual past, I have 8 body count just like her and I never lied about it. Also my gf had a history of picking very low value men, her ex boyfriend was a drug dealer who I went to high school with, he was known to go in and out of jail after high school.

Anyways I told her that she misheard the conversation and that it is ironic that she's mad at me for this since she lied about her sexual past to me, I told her that how she felt in the moment was not even close to how I felt. I then left the party earlier unable to celebrate my cousins music video and 100k subscribers on YouTube.

My gf apologized to my cousin and to me as well. And I told her that she could've asked me in private if I got head from that girl to reassure her that I did not, I then asked her did she react the way that she did because of past trauma ? She said yes a similar situation like this happened to her and her drug dealer ex boyfriend that she would always break up with and get back together... Anyways that was the tip of the iceberg for me I dropped her off home and the next day.

I texted her told her that -I feel like our relationship is not worth fighting for anymore and that I need time to think and figure out what's best for me. I also told her that she needs to take this time to mature and heal from her past trauma.

Hours later she did not respond so I called her and told her the same thing and and said that she was getting ready to go out with her mom so she would like to have this conversation later but I told her I don't want to. And she literally just said Ok. Now it has been like 10 hours since this situation and honestly if she doesn't reach out to me to make things right or even apologize again for her behaviour from 2 nights ago I'm going to feel really stupid for believing her when she said she wanted to be married to me that she loves me and that she wanted me to be the father of her kids. She also bought me a flight to Colombia to meet her brothers and grandma so I feel so confused. Maybe she's processing everything ?

I won't reach out to her anymore, I made myself clear that I need time to think but I can't help to fathom that how can a woman say and act this way towards a man who has been nothing but great to her to act nonchalant. Im trying to figure out where I went wrong, I kept thinking if having a body count of 8 could be the reason why she acts this way in the sense that, messing with that many men could diminish your comptability but in retrospective having a body count of 8 isn't that much right ? For an 26 year old ? Or maybe she's reacting nonchalant about this because of trauma ?

Honestly I've never seen her that nonchalant because she's the type to write me love letters when I would be mad and she would drive to my work place and give me the love letters or make me lunch and deliver it to me at work and all of these small things... I don't feel sad or anything like that just very confused. Also since she seemed serious about getting married to me and all of these things I created a crypto portfolio for the both of us and we made a monthly plans and I grew our portfolio to 85k in a spend of 6 months, I also have my own portfolio of course. But in my head I'm just like.

Look at what I showed you I delivered flowers for you every other month, I cooked for her and her family, I showed her how I make money outside of 9-5 and grew a joint portfolio to 85k, I took her to a cruise to the Caribbean's, out of this world type of sex and love of course, I was very understandable and I showed her who were her real friends...

I helped her on how to become better and gave showed her a side of love and life that no other men showed her. So how can she not try to make it right and call me or text me for better understanding of this situation or anything of that sort.