Trigger warning? This may be a wall and I’m sorry beforehand but I can’t sleep or eat or get her off my mind. This girl and I, we’ll call her Elizabeth, started to date last year around may. We broke up late October because I brought up opening up the relationship while in a manic episode. (I’m schizoaffective but medicated but sometimes it slips through a bit.) a week or so passed with her acting distant and then she said she wanted to end things. Well this year around February she messages me again saying she’d like to come over again. We do this for awhile before it feels like we’re falling back into a relationship. I’m getting confused due to lack of communication and ask her what we are and if she’d like to date again. She said no that she doesn’t at this time want to put a label on it. So I get back on the apps at this point, which looking back on it was a mistake because I feel like she was wanting to see if I’d do that or if I was satisfied with just her. In my head though I feel like she’s just content with me for the time being and that hurt and wasn’t really wanting to pursue a relationship again. Well she pulls away around the beginning of April and I’m confused as to why because she hasn’t said anything. So I ask her what’s up and she told me she went out with a guy friend which I learned was kind of a date and she ended up getting sexually assaulted that night. And at this point I don’t know what to do because I can’t ask her what’s up really because she just went through a traumatic event but also I have questions for my own sanity. I’m just trying to ask advice for how I handle this. I plan on sticking around unless she tells me not too. She’s my best friend and I miss her and her company so much. She texted me tonight while she was drunk and was flirting with me a bit which I had to shut down because I feel, after what she’s told me about how she needs space, is just too soon for her to process this. And myself really. If anyone made it this far thank you I really appreciate it. I’m distraught