17F here. I never had the best relationship with my mother I gave up trying to because she’s narcissistic. Even as a little kid I’ve always felt closer to my guy friends/ my dad.

Enter high school things got a lot worse. Girls hating me for no reason and I wouldn’t even say a word to them. Mean glares and it makes me insecure. I got a boyfriend ( if you paid attention to my other rants things got much much better ) and I’ve notice I’m a lot more comfortable with his friends. Nothing flirty or playful of course. I feel comfortable showing my ‘weird side’ cringy as that sounds because they don’t shame me for it they either laugh or be weird back.

I find it so unfair how quickly guys make friends. And how fucking genuine it is.

Update : To make myself clear I wanted to add how I’m not trying to say “I’m one of the boys” I’ve never felt that way and most likely NEVER will. I did a poor job fully explaining myself. No im not trying to put other girls down. Ive saying how i don’t feel “accepted” in a way.

No, ive never talked shit or put up a mean face to other girls for them to dislike me.